我的心很小。只容纳的下一个人。BF took this one little space in my heart. It first belong to you. Yet you didn't treasure it. Now it goes to someone else. No use fighting for it. Cause I'm no longer the old me. I fight for my rights to get the love that i wanted. To be with the guy i want to marry. To lead the life i wanted to live. And BF is able to give it to me. Just a simple Love life. Yet so fulfilling. Who says money is needed in LOVE? It is the heart that is needed. Not money.
I would rather be poor and suffer with the one i love than to be rich and suffer with the one i do not love.

Boyfriend Girlfriend Poem

You chose weed over me

I'm getting tired of you
I don't wanna laugh.
I just wanna cry all over again.
You messed me up when you cheated.
You chose weed over me.
I can't forgive you.
My heart needs time to heal.
I don't need you or your weed.
I can't love you anymore.
You need to let go of me.
You don't need me any way
you have your weed to love.
I was never your girl, you cheated.
Now I wanna laugh at you.
I wanna dry those tears all over again
You made my life better by leaving.
Go love the weed.
I have a new man to love me.
Who won't chose weed over me.
Now me and my man are going
to scream goodbye.


Melvin Tan Chye Huat is my man. Whoever dare steal him from me will die a horrible death!! RAHS!!

I was nearly late for school today. Thank goodness Melvin Dear wake me up with his 14 calls despite not having his handphone with him. Thank him for waking up at 4.58am even though he sleep after 2am. Thank him for rushing TWO 1st bus down to my home just to accompany me to school. I'm very touched. Had western breakfast today. And realised Banana dont like hashbrown and i dont like toasted bread with butter. Next time shall change with her. Hehes. Had a total of 4 hours lesson and 4 hours break. How cool can it be? Keep disturbing Daniel aka XiaoQiang about the Mcdonald's cup that he owed me from the bet on Monday. Lol. And he really bring it to lecture during the last lecture of the day!! Hahas. Went down to woodlands to meet BF after school and went to play arcade. Hahas. That is the good point of studying in a poly. Arcade after school! Went to my house area and carrot cake and hokkien mee as usual. Hahas. My back hurts alot and i feel like dying! Someone please save me!!

Labels: And so i say. True LOVE never dies.

Being in love and Saying I LOVE YOU is most beautiful feeling. Love make us strong. Everyone has different opinion on love. Some people say that love is nothing while for others love is life. Some people say that love only gives you tears while others say that love takes lots of joy and happiness in their life. But let me tell you one thing that those who are in love are more happy than those who are against love. So, make a decision to love more and more. Spread love all over in your family, your friends, your office and everywhere in the world.
And so i say. Love makes the world go round.

Dear asked me to blog but i'm abit lazy. So i shall update this space again when i'm not that lazy. =) Dear. I blogged!!

Well dear,

Before I realised it, I'm in love with you already. Yes it sounds corny or cheesy whichever is better, but it's true. Just want to thank you for accepting me and liking me for who I am because I know my future is with you and now that I have you in the walk of life, I will cherish you every moment that I'm alive.

Because you love me wholeheartedly, I promise to make you the happiest woman ever although I am unable to give you the world, but I will give you my all.

Baby, that's how much I love you. The world can be against me for all I care, but so long I have your love and support always, I will give up the world to be with you my whole life.

I have my imperfections but I am sure that your love and care for me will make me a better man as I envision a blissful future for us.

Hugs baby dear....Yours truly, Melvin =)

L- is for the way you Look at me
0- is for the Only one i see
V- is Very very extraordinary
E- is Even more than anyone that i adore
and love is all that i can give to you
love is more than just a game for 2
Two in love can make it, take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you.

I'm very happy today. Cause he woke up very early in the morning just to send me to school! Thou he forgotten my ham and cheese sandwich.=( But due to the fact that he cried last night. He is forgiven.=) Both of us have been emo lately. Spent some time with him while waiting for Banana at the MRT station. Lessons today is bored! Nearly fell asleep. Gosh! Thank goodness i'm sitting right at the front. Seems so guai arh? And it was freezing cold! Went for WeiQi followed by meeting MY MELVIN. HE IS MINE! Don't snatch if not i bite you! Had dinner at the coffeeshop his mum is working at. Then he sent me home. Met some of his friends and he thought that i was jealous. For what? I don't see the need to be jealous. Crap away on our way home. And here am i blogging. Hehes.


If loving you is wrong, then I don't wanna be right. My love for you is stronger and brighter than any light. The way we must go is long, but we'll win every fight.

Right?




"I'm Yours" Official Video

Guess what? I got ZERO/40 for 2 of my ICAs. Happy or sad? My mind is in a whirl now. How i wish i can turn back time. I wouldn't have brought him to my mum's shop. It seems that my mum do not like him. Or is it just not at the right place. IDK. My confidence level once again hit rock bottom. It sure did. EMOed all the way back home. Then cried silently. He isn't there for me. Tears rolled down my cheeks as i made the 1st step into home. A place where i could cry my heart out without anyone seeing. ITS COMPLICATED. If i were to choose between you and my family. It is sure that my family will come first. I always believed in "You couldn't choose your parents but you could choose your friends" No matter what. They are still my parents.

LET GO OF THE HANDS OF YOUR LOVE BUT DON'T LET GO OF GODS HAND FOR HE MAYBE HOLDING YOUR LOVE ON HIS OTHER HAND TO LET YOU HOLD EACH OTHER AGAIN=).

I lose confidence. Both at studies and at relationship. I can feel your love and you knew that i feel the same way towards you. The only way we can be together is to try and let my parents accept you. My Little bro seems to like you. IDK WHAT TO DO NEXT! Kept replaying the same song that i previously put in my blog. Cause i lost all my confidence. Looking at that little pink crocodile. I saw you, your care and your love. Do you see it in that care bear that i left with you?

I'm both happy and sad. Can't communicate with the class. Especially my Sub group. I feel like dropping out of nursing. I really do. This kind of mixed feelings. This is the 1st time i felt it. And i tell you. IT SUCKS! I don't know why. The only thing i can do is to run away from problems. I'm afraid to face up to it. Thankfully he is by my side to take care of me. I LOVE HIM.

Immature love says: 'I love you because I need you.' Mature love says: 'I need you because I love you.' GOT IT?? Which group do you belong to? Think before answering.

Fuck it! CB! No use asking me to go school tomorrow cause as you know. I wouldn't. I have every rights you know that? Even if she kneel on durian shell for the whole night. I will not go for ICA presentation. Pissed off to the max! I'm going to get letters written. Be it by whomsoever. And it will be submitted to mentor Huang Fang. By tomorrow. On the better note. I'm happy today. Cause M****n accompanied me to complete my things and went for dance. Played on train then go for dinner. Just to reach home and found out that she pissed me off to the max. What is the meaning of changing my part when you have already told me that 2 weeks ago that i'm doing closure. Going school for the elective module though. And meeting him after school again. I MISS HIM.

The Mosquito

Oei! You stupid mosquito!
Stop sucking me like there’s no tomorrow!
You can’t keep still when I try to hit you,
But when I do, I’ll make mincemeat out of you.

You are ugly, and your legs are very hairy.
I know that because I last time took biology.
You spread dengue, and also HIV.
The latter is not true, but it rhymes very nicely.

The other day when I went to the zoo,
You happily bite me when I was in the loo.
I have no idea why you are such a fool,
Because really very smelly, my freshly made poo poo.

I have decided to wage war on you.
You better get ready to escape on cue.
When I see you, I’ll move in for the kill.
The pain you feel will be very real :)

Oei! You stupid mosquito!
Stop sucking me like there’s no tomorrow!
Please keep still when I try to hit you,
And when I do, I’ll make mincemeat out of you.




One of my nonsensical poem written out of boredom. Why mosquito? Cause Mosquito is my nickname back then. When everyone will call me WenZii instead of WenYan. Rahs. I met M****n just now. He made sandwiches 4 me. So caring that he cut off the sides of the bread that i don't eat. So gan dong! Haha. Then sent me home. Lol! He is not my future husband just as yet! Its too early to say anything. Stop making wild guess. Cause I'M SINGLE AND LOVING IT! I do not want to tie myself down cause of someone i just met. =). In future if we are ever together i will let you know. But Qing lin don't anyhow spread as yet! 4th week of school just gone past without me knowing. Next week is ICA presentation week. Starting to feel the stress not. Haha. I want to cut my hair short! But many tell me i should not. Why?! I spent time doing a bedside lamp for myself last night. How i miss studying D&T! Pictures will be up soon. If i'm not lazy. Hahas.

I'M FRIGGING PISSED OFF. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I FELT LIKE GIVING UP AND GOING BACK TO ENGINEERING. FISH IT! THIS SUBGROUP IS SO NOT FOR ME. SO MUCH OF MISCOMMUNICATION. SO MUCH OF MISUNDERSTANDINGS. SO MUCH OF NOT UNDERSTANDING WHAT IS GROUP WORK. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO NOW? WHAT WILL MY NEXT STEP BE? I'M REALLY CLUELESS. FROM HAVING LOW BLOOD PRESSURE TILL NOW HAVING HIGH RISK OF HAVING HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE. WTH! ALL CAUSE OF MY ITCHY HANDS TRYING TO CHANGE COURSE. I THINK I WILL BE MUCH HAPPIER STUDYING BIO MEDICAL ENGINEERING LOR! ARGH! SHOULD I DROP THIS COURSE AND CHANGE COURSE? OR SHOULD I STAY ON AND PERSEVERE? LIFE IS SO UNFAIR!!

Went Kukup Malaysia yesterday for Seafood! Its suppose to be for lunch. And guess what time we reach? 4pm! Then went for a tour in a sampan to see the fishing village there. The tour guide is a 16 yr old boy and he called me little girl. WTF! My cough is going from bad to worst. Shall eat more spicy food to worsen the situation and it will heal in no time. LOL! Anyway. Today is Mothers Day. I Wish all Mothers in the world a HAPPY MOTHERS DAY! Got to go prepare for mothers day dinner tonight. Tata. My life is monotone that describes my monotone blog. Ha. Stop asking me why.

It is today that i cease to believe in your every single word. You proved me wrong. There is nothing in the world that you spoke could be trusted. But i also need to thank you as it help me find the truth in myself. Jerk! Stop lying about paying her back her pay when you did not want to. Stop lying that you will return me my things when you do not want to! Bastard! Yes! I will defame your company till the day you return me my things! Happy? All this will only be stopped when you return me my things. People like you can never be trusted. Irritating!


Today so funny. Went for CCA orientation with Banana. And we went into the wrong room. Elaborate more next time if i remember. If not this is it. Lol. I'm kind of lazy. Medical results shows i'm fine! So happy. Or what's not. Anyway before i forget. Happy VESAK DAY! My post is becoming more and more random.

Look like me or not? Ha. Found this picture taken back in 2005 i think. 4 years difference. I didnt change alot. Did i?

OMG!! I saw 2 GAY at the MRT kissing and hugging right infront of me! WTF is wrong with the world.

OMG! I'm currently in love with sticky candies. Do visit "http://sticky.com.sg/" Thou I did not go down by myself to buy it. My Godma send it to me. 1 small bottle. And i finished the whole thing in less than an hour. My candy wrote."Crystal is loved". So sweet of her right? Bet it is mre expensive to get it costomised than to get it off the rack. I want more sticky candies!!!

Sticky – Singapore

The Central
6 Eu Tong Sen Street
B1-54/55, Singapore 059817

Anybody wants to go down with me?

Bored in school. Using this 1 hour break to type this post. Lessons end at 6! Too bad last lesson is Bio LAB. If not i would have just scanned my card and go home. I'm feeling so sick now. Someone save me. I'm restricting myself to most of the food in hope that i will get well soon but to no avail. Guess i shall use the fighting poison with poison method and eat my favorite McSpicy(without lettuce). It always make me get well. But now my throat is already hurting so much. I'm afraid i might just lose my voice. I'm confused. Don't know what i should do. Perhaps i should really go to a doctor. And EAT MEDICATION!

Seems like i'm always lagging the world by one day. Notice that by the start of my post. YESTERDAY. Lol. Yesterday lesson was from 10-6 with FOUR hours break! Used it to do ICA preparation. And that is when those three kids. Banana, Milk and Lychee got into a Photo-taking war. Running around the table we used for discussion. I'm wondering if i'm the one in the wrong school or are they the ones in the wrong school. At least time not wasted. Today lesson was 11am-1pm. Such boring lecture. Ha. If i do not have to do ICA preparation i wouldn't be in school today. End up slacking in school till 4pm. Then accompanied Banana to wait for time before we, milk and me left for home and she left for her scholarship interview. My Flu is getting worst day by day. Its like a spoilt tap now.Wondering if i should go hospital tomorrow or go to school. I do not want to be admitted! Tomorrow is a long day. 8am-6pm to be exact. and my Friday end at 9pm! Spells COOL! Ha. I'm partially mad due to my sickness. God. I think i have to be admitted to IMH instead. Say i'm stubborn or whatever. I doubt i will go see doctor till i faint in school and have to be admitted by ambulance. That is just so me.

Labels: I have been sick since the day you left and it is hurting me alot.

Fever came back this morning and i swear. I felt like dying. But most said i look better than yesterday. Maybe cause i didn't vomit today? I found out that honey water taste bitter. Is that the taste or is my taste bud spoilt. Went home by bus and i find taking bus could be a wonderful thing when you are sick! Board bus 13 at YCK interchange. And guess what. The bus is crowded yet nobody dare to sit beside me, infront of me and behind me! Cause of cough and flu. One girl even took out one big box of mask and distribute to the whole bus! So classic. Seriously speaking. Do coughing and having flu = swine flu? Haven't tell them that i got fever and sorethroat yet already so cautious of me. But also good. I got more fresh air! Next time shall try calling somebody and say: "I enjoyed my weekend holiday at Mexico!". The whole bus will be empty lor! Or maybe try it out in school canteen. Sure can get a seat for my whole group of friends. Yesterday was the start of elevtive. Means lessons end later than usual! But elective was fun. I love the lecturer. Ms Wilma.T. She is the one and only lecturer so far that can make me concentrate/laugh for a whole 2 hours 30 mins and still going on. The only thing i hate is. NEED TO BUY FORMAL WEAR! AND CAN'T USE BLACK TOP. MEANS I HAVE TO BUY ANOTHER ONE. WTF! Side track. Like and miss is totally different from love. Maybe cause of my past. I dare not open myself to love anymore. I find that love is just bullshit. Call me flirt or whatever you like. Cause i know i am not. That's enough. I do not find the need to explain to anybody. Or everybody. If i knew that jerk for 2 years plus and i still do not know him enough. Do you think someone that i met for only THREE days can be considered love? IDK too.

No more fever. So glad. Thou still having slight cough. Went out today and saw somebody which i do not wish to see. 8 years and he is still the same. Childish! Following me all the way since we met face to face at the food court. Lucky my parents was somewhere nearby. Therefore called and they came to my rescue! He still recognised me. Proved that i have yet to change since primary school? Or proved that he have been stalking me for 8 years! I nearly couldn't recognise him. Took me 5-10 seconds and some hints before i could remember. Guess what is the 1st thing he said to me? "Erm. You still with that Ah Lian arh?" I was like "WTF". Someone actually still remembered that i was once a "lesbian" back in primary school days. Thinking back i still do miss her. Still remember vividly her sweet smile, her warmth, her care and concern. Still remembered calling her angel cause her name was Angela. Yes. She is my Ah Lian looking angel. Ha. And she called me Diamond. Lol. So Different from Crystal. That is what i always tell her. And she assured me that I'm as precious as a diamond to her. Wonder how she is now. I lose contact with her ever since i retained in Secondary 3. Such a pity. Dear girl. If you happened to pop by my blog. Just to let you know that i miss you alot. Thou i promised my mum to turn straight. I did try. But after what that jerk did to me. I think being a lesbian would be a much better choice. I don't know either. Maybe i have yet to meet my better other half. I though i met him. But he left without a word. Left me crying alone as i saw he leaving. The pain came back. Luckily i have only met him for three times. Otherwise i think it would hurt more than what that jerk did unto me. I miss you girl. But i miss ZM even more. Sigh.

Rule #1:
If you read this you do it.

Rule #2:
You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you and asks.

Rule #3:
Answer True or False

Q: Kissed someone on your friends list? / True
Q: Been arrested? / False
Q: Do you like someone? / True
Q: Held a snake? / False
Q: Been suspended from school? / False
Q: Sang karaoke? / True
Q: Done something you told yourself you wouldn't do? / True
Q: Laughed until you started crying? / True
Q: Caught a snowflake on your tongue? / False
Q: Kissed in the rain? / True
Q: Sang in the shower? / True
Q: Sat on a roof top? / True
Q: Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? / True
Q: Broken a bone? / True
Q: Shaved your head? / False
Q: Played a prank on someone? / False
Q: Shot a gun? / False
Q: Donated Blood? / Truth

Just be 100% truthful.

LAST PERSON THAT.


1. You hung out with? / Fruity yougurt
2. You texted? / Cousin LiYun
3. You were in a car with? / Myself
4. Went to the movies with? / ZM
5. Person you went to shop with? / ZM
6. You talked on the phone? / Dental clinic to book appointment
8. You hugged? / ZM

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY...

1. Sun or moon? / Moon
2. Winter or Fall? / Winter
3. Left or Right? / Right
4. Sunny or rainy? / Rainy
5. Where do you live? / Singapore- Red light district
6. Club or pub? / Pub
7. Are there 1 or 2 people who you can always trust and rely on? / Yes
8. Do you want to get married? / Yes
9. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? / Twirl
10. What time is it? / 9.27PM
11. Are you afraid of commitment? / Depends
12. What is your greatest hope/wish? / To see him happy
13. Do you cook? / Yes
14. Current mood? / Sick

IN THE LAST 48 HOURS HAVE YOU...

1. Kissed someone? / No
2. Sang? / Yes
3. Listened to music? / Yes
4. Danced? / Yes
5. Cried? / Yes
6. Liked someone you can't? / Yes

22 FIRSTS

1.Who was your first prom date? / N/A
2. Who was your first roommate? / My Grandma
3. What alcoholic beverage did you drink when you got drunk the first time? / Wine.
5. What was your first car? / Toy car.
6. When did you go to your first funeral and viewing? / Primary 6~Grand dad.
8. Who was your first grade teacher? / Mrs Han Yap Lay Hua.
9. Where did you go on your first ride on an airplane? / Never been on a plane.
10. When you snuck out of your house for the first time? / Thursday night to go to hospital for jab.
11. Who was your first Best Friend? / N/A
12. Who is your best friend? / My Fruity milkshake.
14. Who is the first person you call when you have a bad day? / I pray to GOD.
15. Who's wedding were you in the first time you were a Bridesmaid or groomsmaid? / Flower girl? / Cousin SiRu.
16. What's the first thing you did when you got up this morning? /Wash up.
19. First tattoo or piercing? / Primary 1.
20. First celebrity crush? / N/A
22. First crush? Like a real person? /Aaron Chee LiYao~~Otherwise known as a jerk.

Repost this with "Thou shalt not lie".

GUILTY. Is the only word to describe me now. Felt really guilty. I don't know why. That blog with that post will remain there till you return me my stuffs. That is the only thing i can assure you i will do. To delete it once you return me my stuffs. Its something not within my control, but it is within your control. You just have to return me my stuffs. And that post will be deleted. Simple as that. I regretted letting June join the company. Regret letting you make use of her. What kind of friend am i? To bring her down to your trap. I hope for the best that she will get her pay back. If not i don't think i will ever forgive myself. Friendship means a lot to me. And i treasure each and everyone of them.

Life is monotone cause i'm sick. I want to go out! Freak it fever. Cause of you my mum do not allow me to go anywhere. And i swear. Sleeping and eating for two whole days is a chore. And it gonna bring me extra fats! Oh My God!

Labels: Sometimes its just too late to regret.

Sick. Down with high fever of 38.6, headache and a bad sore throat. Felt so weak. Have been staying at home sleeping the whole day since 9pm last night. I felt like a pig! Mum have been cooking tonics for me. Last night was abalone and essence chicken. This afternoon was fish maw soup and bird nest. I felt so fortunate to have such a caring mother. Thou it was only when i'm sick that she cook for me. I can feel the love in the food she cook! Hate the swine flu to the max! I want to go out! ARGH.

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