Monday, August 31, 2009 Y 12:00 AM
RASHES SUCKS! I FEEL SO ITCHY ALL OVER.
MY DAD PURPOSELY ASKED MY MUM TO ADD PORK INTO ALL THE DISHES THIS DINNER. SCREAMS! I ATE FEW MOUTH AND THAT'S IT. WEIRD THAT IM ALLERGIC TO PORK. HAD RUNS AND I SWEAR I WOULDNT BE TOUCHING PORK FOR AT LEAST THE NEXT FEW MONTHS. I HATE THE AFTER EFFECT ALTHOUGH I LOVE THE TASTE.
I HOPE GRANDMA IS GOING TO BE DISCHARGE SOON. I MISS HER ALOT.
ANYWAY.
HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO AHMA JN.
Friday, August 28, 2009 Y 10:57 AM
Grandma got to go hospital again. I felt so useless. I felt so helpless. I'm tearing yet nobody knows. Ambulance coming in 15min. As i wait. Tears rolled down my eyes again. I sucks!
Sunday, August 23, 2009 Y 6:03 AM
How would you feel if you visit a friend's house and he asked you to sleep outside the toilet. So what if she is a maid? Isn't she a human? And by saying that because she is a maid. So she cant sleep in my room and help me take care of grandma. Then can you, the father of the employer(me) of the maid sleep outside the toilet of a aircon room? Why not you try being in my shoes and wake up every 30mins in the middle of the night from 10pm all the way till 3am before you can have a good night sleep. Then wake up at 7am just because grandma wakes up at that time. Thanks to my little brother's act of self pity. His little bit of tears did made my night easier. At least i can sleep in peace last night. I still wonder if my dad is a human or not? His act is simply inhumane. MY mum is having long term illness and still have to treat him as a king? Who the hell does he think he is? Aunt came and as usual quarelled with that inhuman creature called my dad. He who thinks that everyone is wrong except him. WTF! I HATE MY DAD!
Thursday, August 20, 2009 Y 12:10 AM
我真的开心吗？我真的快乐吗？我真的不知道。
Thursday, August 13, 2009 Y 10:16 PM
Grandma is finally out of hospital after the 10 days long torture. Was by her side during physiotherapy today and the physiotherapist said that my grandma was lazy. LOL! She didn't want to practice on climbing the stairs. Then off to find BF. And back home. My mum put a chair in the middle of the long flight of stairs for my grandma to rest on. So innovative! Hahas. My flu is back after disappearing for 1 day! Thanks to the icecream. I guess. Going to school for mask fitting tomorrow then down to driving centre! Cant wait for my first lesson! Soon i can drive to school! But should i? Petrol is expensive leh!
CRYSTAL IS A HAPPY GIRL!
Sunday, August 9, 2009 Y 11:06 AM
IM SO NOT FINE. DOWN WITH FLU, FEVER, COUGH, SNEEZE, SORETHROAT AND BODYACHES. AND IM FEELING WEIRD. HAD NOSEBLEED IN THE MIDDLE OF MY SLEEP FOR A 2ND TIME THIS YEAR. AND I FEEL LIKE VOMMITING AGAIN. TELLITUBBIES SAYS:"AGAIN AGAIN!!". LOL. KEPT ON SLEEPING SINCE YESTERDAY EVENING AND I STILL FEEL TIRED, VERY TIRED. AND FOR GOD SAKE. THE PATIENT BESIDE MY GRANDMA IS A H1N1 PATIENT! COULD I HAVE GOTTON IT FROM THERE? ANSWERS LEFT UNKNOWN. I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN NOT TO VISIT MY GRANDMA WHEN IM ALREADY DOWN WITH SLIGHT FLU. NOW MY NOSE IS RUNNING LIKE TAP WATER. CAN ANYONE TELL ME HOW TO IMPROVE MY IMMUNE SYSTEM? BEFLORE I DROP DEAD WHILE DOING ATTACHMENT THIS SEPTEMBER? AND 1 GOOD NEWS IS. MY GRANDMA IS FEELING ALOT BETTER. PRAISE THE LORD. I WANT TO THANK BF, CHC AND FCBC PEEPS FOR ALL THE PRAYERS. ESPECIALLY 1 UNKNOWN DA JIE(IDK HER NAME) WHO HUGGED ME AND PRAY WITH ME. AND I ALWAYES TEARED AFTER THAT. IS THAT DUE TO THE STRONG PRESENSE OF GOD? OR IS IT JUST ME BEING TOUCHED BY THE PRAYER MADE BY 1 UNKNOWN SISTER?
Saturday, August 8, 2009 Y 8:46 AM
Grandma is in the Operation Theater and im so worried. Hope she will be well again. Flu vacine isn't helping. Im having slight flu again. LOL
Thursday, August 6, 2009 Y 11:01 PM
Just when i thought everything got a little better. My grandma pulled out her tube for oxygen. When my Staff Nurse cousin told her that her surgery would be tomorrow and she will have to be transfered to ICU after surgery. She didn't explain properly and my grandma thought that she is critically ill. GOSH!! When in actual fact. She will be transfered into ICU so as to better monitor her condition. If i went to visit my grandma just now instead of giving excuses saying that i'm tired. Things wouldn't have turned out this way. This teaches me not to take things for granted when grandma's health improved yesterday. I'm missing her already. I HATE the word "TIRED" cause it nearly made me lose my grandma. Thank goodness i got quite a strong sixth sense. My eyelids twitch just now signaling that something bad is happening and i called my Cousin who is on shift in NUH in the opposite ward just in time when the incident took place. Should i go to the hospital tomorrow morning before my school starts?
Wednesday, August 5, 2009 Y 12:08 AM
That's my beloved grandma! Went to hospital for a 2nd time and grandma's condition is getting worst. Blood sugar level raise till 29.4 from yesterday's 19.9. Having Fever of 38.9. Keep complaining of pain in the fractured area. Waiting for a heart specialist to check on her heart condition before doing the surgery. There is two choices. Either to put in screws in first operation and wait for a few more months then go for a second operation or have surgery on the head of femur bone and attached a metal bowl like thing or whatever you call that.
And the doctor said that: "If possible, the heart specialist will see her tomorrow morning and have her surgery tomorrow evening.". And i highlighted the word IF to her doctor. What if her surgery is delayed? Will anything happen? What if the surgery is rushed through before solving the current signs and symptoms. Will there be further complications?
I'm in such a confused state i do not know how to carry on with life. It seems that life stopped for a moment. I do not have the mood to study now and tomorrow is my biology practical test. How??
Thanks BF, FCBC peeps, CHC peeps for the prayers. I will stay strong. I will always remember what someone once told me. That Crystal is a strong girl and that she would fight off anything. This time I'm not fighting alone. I'm fighting my grandma's illnesses with my grandma and this whole group of friends. And i strongly believe that i will win this fight together with her.
Wendy Jie MSNed me this: "What do you do on difficult days? Hold on to all that God is and all that He does. God is still working for you. All things are still working together for good (Rom. 8:28). Don't turn away from Him. Wait. He will bring you out of your affliction. * * * Whenever you experience a difficult day, encourage yourself by focusing on God's character and His attributes--power, loving-kindness and faithfulness."
Thanks peeps. I'm feeling a lot better. =)
Crystal is sad yet what can i do?
That's my beloved grandma!