Went to hospital for a 2nd time and grandma's condition is getting worst. Blood sugar level raise till 29.4 from yesterday's 19.9. Having Fever of 38.9. Keep complaining of pain in the fractured area. Waiting for a heart specialist to check on her heart condition before doing the surgery. There is two choices. Either to put in screws in first operation and wait for a few more months then go for a second operation or have surgery on the head of femur bone and attached a metal bowl like thing or whatever you call that.

And the doctor said that: "If possible, the heart specialist will see her tomorrow morning and have her surgery tomorrow evening.". And i highlighted the word IF to her doctor. What if her surgery is delayed? Will anything happen? What if the surgery is rushed through before solving the current signs and symptoms. Will there be further complications?

I'm in such a confused state i do not know how to carry on with life. It seems that life stopped for a moment. I do not have the mood to study now and tomorrow is my biology practical test. How??

Thanks BF, FCBC peeps, CHC peeps for the prayers. I will stay strong. I will always remember what someone once told me. That Crystal is a strong girl and that she would fight off anything. This time I'm not fighting alone. I'm fighting my grandma's illnesses with my grandma and this whole group of friends. And i strongly believe that i will win this fight together with her.

Wendy Jie MSNed me this: "What do you do on difficult days? Hold on to all that God is and all that He does. God is still working for you. All things are still working together for good (Rom. 8:28). Don't turn away from Him. Wait. He will bring you out of your affliction. * * * Whenever you experience a difficult day, encourage yourself by focusing on God's character and His attributes--power, loving-kindness and faithfulness."

Thanks peeps. I'm feeling a lot better. =)