Live Life The Way You Want It

2010-10-25T21:02:00.000+08:00

就算下一秒钟是世界末日，只要这一秒钟还没来，就不是事实。事实只有一个：就是在这一秒钟，我们还在一起。

就算下一分钟就是世界末日，只要这一分钟还没来，就不是事实。事实只有一个：就是在这一分钟我们一起度过，那也算是天长地久。

Even if the next second end of the world, as long as the second has not come yet, it is not true. The fact that there is only one: that in this very moment, we are still together.
Even if the next minute is the end of the world, as long as this minute has not come yet, it is not true. The fact that there is only one: that we spent together in this minute, it would be forever.

MCD KALLANG SUCKS!

2010-10-16T20:23:00.000+08:00

Ever went into a fast food outlet and get your day ruined?? It happened today.. I was standing few metres behind the queue with no one behind me.. I'm SMS-ing someone when that Service crew shouted to me.. "OIE! Want to order or not!" I wasn't even blocking your queue lor.. Please mind the rest who is queueing up for food behind your co-workers instead of shouting at me with that rude tone of yours!! So i just stared at her for a second before continue my SMS business.. When i went to order. She started talking about everything under the sun to her co-workers. What she want to do after work etc. Clicking on her board whichever item which i ordered but she got it all wrong.. WTH!
I ordered1 double cheese burger, 1 fillet burger, 1 fillet meal and 1 mcspicy meal.. up size BOTH meals with LARGE coke WITHOUT ice..(means i should be getting 1 double cheese burger 2 fillet burger, 1 mcspicy burger, 2 large fries and 2 large coke without ice)
The food items i got is.. 1 cheese burger. 2 fillet burger. 1 double mcspicy. 2 under packed medium fries, 2 medium coke with ice..
She continue staring at me as thou she did nothing wrong with the orders and shouted what am i waiting for in the queue after my food is packed.. Until i told her about her wrong orders.. She said that i didn't tell her that.. Best thing is.. She change fries and drinks reluctantly.. Poured the fries into the large fries packet making it look severely under pack.. And she gave me 2 3/4 filled large coke. How nice of a service is that..
I was damn pissed off with that attitude of that service crew.. That i went forward to tell the senior manager "Thank you for the wonderful and pleasant service that your crew gave me.. Filled with wrong attitude, wrong orders and under packed food.. I will not visit this outlet anymore.. Being a MCD crew for two years.. I knew how a MCD staff should act like.. Not like a barbarian that your crew have shown me.. Thanks alot!" And i left.. Seriously.. That girl should not be in the service industry if her attitude is like that.. Even the customer behind me said that he heard what i ordered and she did give the wrong items..

To that girl.. You can seriously consider changing job.. This job in the service line don't suit you..

P.I.S.S.E.D!

2010-06-23T02:20:00.000+08:00

My left leg suffered another two attack today. Knee and ankle to be exact. Went to see a chinese physician as i thought was some kind of sprain or whatever. They said my leg is fine. Massaged a little and was feeling better. So i just went off. Less than 1 hour later. It acted up again. This time i got into Hospital ED. X-rayed and stuff.. And once again they said that results showed that im ok. Felt that i have lost control over my left leg already. Can trip over nothing if im walking without looking at my leg. What is happening to me. Im so afraid that i would turn into.. ... ... Im so afraid that i kept crying. Couldnt even manage to walk up to my room, Walk up three steps and i fell 2 steps. I gave up. Gonna sleep on dad's massage chair later. Felt super useless. GAHS!

2010-06-22T16:10:00.001+08:00

Went out with lesbi. Bought sticky candies. <3<3

2010-06-10T14:57:00.000+08:00

Guess my heart aint completely dead yet. Shall give another chance. Just 1 last chance. To prove that this love is true.

2010-06-08T15:44:00.000+08:00

Stuck in school feeling very sick. No one knows why i go to school so early in the morning for when my lesson in 5-6pm. Stonning. Doing nothing. Finally everything is settled. Thou i have yet announce that im attached.. Can say that i just broke up with my other half this morning. The ending of 1 chapter of my life. Which will lead to a better future. I suppose. Now starting on this new chapter of my life. I feel so relieved. My 1st sem test starting on week11! Got to start mugging and complete my ICAs! Half way through revising my Pharmacology. Half dead already. How i wish my brain have an external memory storage. Sigh..

2010-06-04T22:57:00.001+08:00

I FREAKING HATE PEOPLE WHO THINKS THEY KNOW WHAT IS RIGHT.. CAUSE YOU BLOODY HELL DO NOT KNOW! DAMN THAT AUNTIE WHO SELL YTF AT NORTH CANTEEN. HELLO! I TOOK MY INGREDIENTS TO YOU AND SAID. KUEY TIAO SOUP! BOIL ALL THE INGREDIENTS. NO DEEP FRIED CAUSE I'M HAVING A BAD SORETHROAT. I EVEN TOLD YOU THE REASON! SUCH A PAIN IN THE ASS LADY! I'M SOMEONE WHO NEVER EVER PAY FOR THE FOOD THAT I DID NOT ORDER. YES! I HEARD YOU SCOLDING CRUDE WORDS WHEN I LEFT WITHOUT PAYING. SO GET A LIFE. LUCKY THE LADY INFRONT OF ME WAS KIND ENOUGH TO SAY FORGET IT. SHE ORDERED ZHA JIANG MIAN CHANGE TO KUEY TIAO. AND YOU GAVE HER ZHA JIANG MIAN ORIGINAL. IF THAT WAS ME. I WOULD HAVE POURED THAT TWO BIG BOWLS OF NOODLES OVER YOUR HEAD! DAMN BLOODY PISSED OFF. YOU RUINED MY DAY!! HAD 2 SCOOP OF RUM AND RAISIN ICE CREAM CAUSE I NEEDED TO COOL DOWN BEFORE I SCOLD ANYONE WHO WALK PAST ME. BUT I WAS APPARENTLY STILL FUMING MAD. SO I ATE LOK LOK DIP! WENT OUT WITH A SORE THROAT AND DRANK KOI GREEN MILK TEA. GUESS I WAS A LOT BETTER AFTER THAT. MET HIM. THEN WENT TO HIS HOUSE TO SLACK AROUND. GOT TIRED AND RESTED ON HIS BED. WOKE UP FEELING ABIT NOT IN THE RIGHT MOOD. SO I WENT HOME MYSELF. THROWING MY TANTRUM ON HIM. BOUGHT A BIG TUB OF 2 LITERS ICE CREAM AND ATE IT ALL UP. GOSH! FATS!! BUT AT LEAST.. I'M HAPPY AND CONTENTED. =) SORRY DEAR TO MAKE YOU SO WORRIED..

2010-05-21T22:21:00.000+08:00

I dont understand and i dont wish to understand.. Life is simply too complicated for me now.. Everything i See, Say and Do is wrong.. Everything the others See, Say and Do is correct.. Why aint things going the way i want it to be? Why?? Is my decision making Really that poor?? Feel like shutting myself alone.. At home.. Out of this world. I cant take it anymore. Im going crazy!! Please dont wait till the time i go bonkers and start screaming.. Please stop testing my patience. ARGHS!!!!

2010-05-14T14:34:00.002+08:00

QingLin asked me to update! So this is my post! LOL!!

2010-05-09T22:34:00.000+08:00

1 more week 2 driving test.. Feel stressed up all of a sudden.. Thanks for bringing me to the doctor on friday.. Diagnosed with Costochondritis and Asthma.. Costochondritis means.. The inflammation of the costal cartilages. So stop asking me what that is.. Asthma is not fun!! Inhaler is worst! Cant imagine that im on that stupid thing now!! GOSH!! ANW on the brighter side.. Going into week 4 and i have yet to sleep in any of my lectures!! How nice of me.. Haha..

2010-05-06T22:16:00.002+08:00

2010-04-26T23:33:00.028+08:00

Felt weak all over.. Stabbing pain at chest area which radiates to the back. Pricking pain all over whole body. Splitting headache. Flu. Cough. Fever. Vomit. Muscle aches. Damn. School was ok. Didnt feel that weak when i see the girls in school. Lab was fun? QL hand is freaking cold which made me jump every time she touch me. LOL!! Then went alone to chalotte's house to bring her to TTSH to see a doctor! Damn expensive sia! Many thanks to QL for lending me her pretty purple umbrella. Thou im 75% wet once i step out of school! The rain is that big! Walk barefooted to her house as my footware got no friction and causes me to nearly slip n fall 3 times. Fought with 3 "xiao qiang" at her void deck. And i thank god that im alone! LOL! Passerby already look at me with very weird stares. Asked Boss to fetch me home as i wasn't feeling well akready. Hopefully i don't spread to him. HAHA.. Whats wrong with the current LTK flu? Or is it onli the NR0913 flu? Hope everyone gets well soon.

I feel so.. Don't really know how to describe either.

2010-04-13T02:25:00.002+08:00

Mixed feelings. Both happy and sad. Last week of holidays. And its the busiest week of my holiday. Gave up going to Dallas although its my dream cause if i fly over to Dallas. I will be missing 3-4 days of school. Guess right now. School is still more important. Right? Or at least i perceived as such. Boss is going and is flying off at 6.30am later. Sigh. Threw me with the many decoration jobs to handle this Thursday evening, Friday whole day till 6pm and early Saturday morning at 5am.

Last few weeks was packed with driving lessons. And all the tomb sweeping thingy. Went with him for tomb sweeping. Then he showed me his dad. And his mum started telling me stories about how playful and naughty he was since young. Seems like he never change. Except being more mature a little. Haha.

Meanwhile, busy with my pack schedule.

Monday meet WWSS client (Fri evening - Sat morning decoration) Driving lesson. (Last lesson before my TP test on 17th MAY. My instructor said i improved! So happy or what? But im still afraid that i will fail. Cause im stopping for 35 days before my TP test! Gosh)

Tuesday meeting Lele and Coco to go Malaysia-Jusco! Things to do include

Check if they got sell skates cheaper than Singapore
Buy sushi
Buy sausages
**Buy more food**
Play arcade
**Find QL's belated bdae gift!**
If time permits, Do more random and stupid(smart) stuffs!

Wednesday meeting lele & (her gor) if applicable to go ECP to skate.
Thursday going class gathering, off to prepare for decoration job.
Friday full day decoration. (LOVE THE SMELL OF FRESH QUALETEX LATEX BALLOONS).
(7 Colums for BBI 6th yr anniversary and 4 ft gallon floating balloon * 4.5m colum for WWSS 10th yr anniversary.)
Saturday morning decoration, leaving my afternoon for rest not. Got to head down to my dad's company to help out.
Sunday going TPY. My grandma's last living birthday on the 1st yr after death. Followed by Dinner at Dad's association.
Monday school reopen which makes me have no time to think of him.
Hope Year2 will be a better year for me and my cliques. =)

2010-03-31T23:29:00.000+08:00

My very busy month of March officially ended. 1st was attachment til 19th Mar followed by 12 days straight of driving lessons with 200 mins everyday. Tomorrow will be the 2nd time im going back to the hospital after my attachment to see my cute patients! But for everything, It comes in a package. He is working tomorrow. Super sianned! Guess will have to walk past him like walking past a piece of glass?

Cant wait for my TP test 47 days later. OMG! i should try not to stall engine anymore. Today got big improvement! 1st time stalling less than 10 times in 200 mins! Hahaha. Proud of myself! =) 2 more lessons during the end of my holidays. Got to aim 2 stall engine less than 3 times? than 0 times? Can i do that? LOL! I got no faith at all! DIE ALREADY LAR!!

2010-03-28T22:59:00.000+08:00

I FEEL SO WRONGED AND PISSED! SOME UNKNOWN GUY WHO ADDED ME IN MSN CALLED ME AN ARROGANT BITCH BECAUSE I REFUSED TO BE HIS GIRLFRIEND. WTH! I DONT EVEN KNOW YOU. DIDNT EVEN MEET YOU BEFORE. WHY SHOULD I EVEN ACCEPT YOU WHEN I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT A KIND OF PERSON YOU ARE! STUPID GUY!

2010-02-26T23:28:00.001+08:00

IF ONE DAY...

If one day you feel like crying...
Call me.
I don't promise that I will make you laugh,
But I can cry with you

If one day you want to run away--
Don't be afraid to call me.
I don't promise to ask you to stop...
But I can run with you

If one day you don't want to listen
to anyone...
Call me.
I promise to be there for you.
And I promise to be very quiet.

But if one day you call...
And there is no answer...
Come fast to see me.
Perhaps I need you.

-The End -

2010-02-17T01:16:00.000+08:00

SERIOUSLY. I HATE U! U ASKED ME TO DO "A" DEN WHEN I DO "A" U SCOLD ME AND SAID U ASKED ME TO DO "B" WTH! I KEPT QUIET CAUSE U ARE MY KIN. NOT ANYONE ELSE. PEOPLE JOLLY WELL KNOW THAT IF SOMEONE ELSE DID THAT TO ME. THEY AINT GETTING AWAY WITH THAT SILENT TREATMENT.
SECONDLY, ONLY A FOOL LIKE ME WILL TRUST A LIAR TWICE I THINK? SAME PERSON AS THE ABOVE MENTION. BUT DIFFERENT STORY. ARGHS! I HATE U!!! I WOULD HAVE MOVED OUT IF I HAD ENOUGH MONEY TO SUSTAIN. BUT MUST NOT ACT RASHLY TO SIGN THE BOND. TAKE ONE STEP AT A TIME. I WILL ENDURE TILL THE TIME I CAN NO LONGER TAKE IT. ARGHS!

ON A BRIGHTER NOTE.
CNY GATHERING
Buffet/Steamboat & BBQ
DATE: 26 FEB 2010
Time: 6:00pm (meet at aljunied mrt)
Location: 33 Lorong 25A Geylang Road

http://www.facebook.com/?ref=home#!/event.php?eid=472932740075
Do confirm ur self if u are able to make it. =)

2010-02-05T23:18:00.000+08:00

1FIVEZERO brings you 2010 Hottest Valentine's Day Balloon Bouquet

1. Tweety Devil Valentine - S$10.00 2. Bear Love -S$10.00 3. Valentine Message - S$10.00
4. Pooh Valentine - S$10.00 5. Hottie Valentine - S$20.00 6.Kiss me Princess - S$20.00

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2010-02-02T00:39:00.001+08:00

Many things to say. yet do not know how to type. Shall write it in white. Cause for 1 simple reason. My blog post cant be copied and paste. Therefore no one will know what i typed and it shall stil remain a secret.

My Sec 1 compo on ==> The three super heros~! LOL! Guess the content. Cause it wouldnt be posted!

Once upon a time, there lived three siblings by the name of Mr. Quek, Superman and Wonder woman. They are born with special abilities. Superman can fly and save people from trouble. Wonder woman can become invisible in times of danger. In addition, Mr. Quek has a pair of charming eyes that can charm the enemies and make them do his bidding.
Now, something terrible happened to this super hero family one day. An ugly woman by the name of Dr. Octopus fell in love with Mr. Quek. She was simply revolting. Nobody could bear the sight of her. Her hair appeared at the wrong places. She had no hair on her head but instead had long curly moustache just like that of a man. Her hands and legs are as hairy as the rambutan. She had a pair of round, big, bulging goldfish eyes, and a sausage like lips accompanied by the massive body of a body builder. The length of her hands is as long as the metre ruler whereas the length of her legs is just half of the length of her hands. She had the figure of a sumo wrestler. She had a tan complexion on the left side of her body and a fair complexion on the right.

Dr. Octopus tried to make trouble in the neighborhood to attract Mr. Quek’s attention. She lock most of the kids up in a dark and cold room, giving only a little food to each of the kids there. The three super heroes found out about the incident that Dr. Octopus did. Therefore, they decided to make Dr. Octopus their first enemy.

Their first move was to rescue the pitiful kids from the dark and cold room, which is at the top floor of a HDB flat. Superman flew all the way to the top floor to rescue the kids. Wonder woman use invisibility to frighten Dr. Octopus. Mr. Quek use Charming eyes to lure Dr. Octopus away from the scene. They manage to save all the kids except some who was held as hostage. They went for further planning and continue their work the next day. This time, they rescued the rest of the kids and became their hero.
They went on for their second plan after resting for a few days. Their second plan was to get rid of Dr. Octopus. They created a sleeping potion to make Dr. Octopus fall into a good night sleep. They spiked her drink with the sleeping potion, stood behind the door keeping a close watch on her. They waited for one whole afternoon before she took her drink and fell asleep. When Dr. Octopus was sleeping, the super heroes killed Dr. Octopus in a few seconds.
In the end, the tree super heroes, Mr. Quek, Superman and Wonder woman lost their special abilities and lead a normal lifestyle like we do.
482 Words

I LOVE YOU

2010-01-27T00:43:00.001+08:00

Here's a story of a girl,
Living in the lonely world,
A hidden note, A secret crush,
A little boy who talks too much.

Well, I'm standing in the crowd,
And when you smile I check you out,
But you don't even know my name,
You're too busy playing games,

And I want you to know,
If you lose your way,
I won't let you go.

If I cut my hair,
If I change my clothes,
Will you notice me?

If I bite my lip,
If I say hello,
Will you notice me?

*holding ur hands* *starring at u*
" everything is gonna be fine"

2010-01-26T01:08:00.000+08:00

BIO RESULTS OUT. MOST OF THEIR GRADE IS THE SAME AS THE 1ST INITIAL AS THEIR NAME. THEN WY SAID. "I KNOW WHY I GET A LER. A FOR ASSHOLE." SO LAME. AND I JUST REALISE QL ALSO GOT THE 1ST INITIAL OF HER CHRISTIAN NAME. THEN WHY DIDNT I GET C FOR CRYSTAL. OR IS IT BECAUSE IM STILL LIVING IN THE WORLD OF MY OWN?

SAW A.L.L 3 TIMES TODAY.

1ST TIME WAS WHEN IM RUSHING LATE FOR TUTORIAL. RAN TO THE LIFT AND HE RAN TOWARDS THE LIFT DIRECTION WHEN HE SAW ME RUNNING.

THEN OUR CONVERSATION GOES WHILE IN THE LIFT

HI. REMEMBER ME.

YA. COACH ME 1ST LAB RETEST 1 ON 1 RIGHT?

GOOD THAT YOU STILL REMEMBER ME. THEN HOW'S YOUR LAB? GOT PASS?

YA. GOT PASS. ONLY FAIL WOUND DRESSING. SIAN SIA.

AIYA WOUND DRESSING ALOT PEOPLE FAIL CAUSE OF ASEPTIC TECHNIQUE. WHY U FAIL?

CAUSE IM LATE 1 HOUR FOR LECTURE.

*GAVE THAT =.=" FACE*

LIFT REACH LEVEL 6. I PRESS BUTTON.

HE LEFT SAYING. THANKS. SEE YOU.

2ND TIME SAW HIM FEW METRES INFRONT OF ME. AND THE 3RD TIME. SAW HIM WALKING TOWARDS MY DIRECTION AND I TURN AND WALK A DIFFERENT ROUTE. LOL!

STILL I PREFER MY SINGLE LIFE. NO WORRIES OF BEING TIED DOWN BY SOME JERKS!=)

2010-01-19T23:22:00.001+08:00

JUST A BUNCH OF TEENAGERS ACTING LIKE 3 YR OLD KIDS! WHAT'S THERE TO PEEP MAN. I GOT THE PICS! SO ADMIT IT AND AT LEAST APOLOGISE TO MY GIRLS! IDIOTS! A BUNCH OF PERVERTS! YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE. DONT ASK ME WHO YOU ARE CAUS YOU KNOW IT BETTER THAN ME! WHATS THE POINT OF CHEAPENING YOURSELF BY PEEPING AT YOUR OWN SCHOOL MATES. OR EVEN TO YOU. YOUR OWN CLASSMATES! IF YOU WANT TO SEE GIRLS! GO GEYLANG SEE LUH! I CAN BE YOUR FREE TOUR GUIDE! BEST IF YOU GET AIDS AND DIE THERE! WHATS WITH PEOPLE NOWADAYS. SPAMING TWEETS THAT DOESNT BELONG TO YOU. AND PEEPING AT PEOPLE. REALLY CHILDISH TO THE MAX! WHAT IF ITS THE OTHER WAY ROUND WHERE I TOOK UR NAKED PICS AND POST IN ONLINE FOR EVERYONE TO SEE. PRINT AND STICK IT ALONG THE CORRIDORS. HOW WILL YOU FEEL. IF IT DOESNT FEEL GOOD. KINDLY APOLOGISE BEFORE I REPORT IT TO THE HIGHER AUTHORITIES. THINK IM JOKING? TRY ME!

2009-12-30T00:44:00.000+08:00

I guess life isnt on my side. 1st, The death of people close to my heart. 2nd, The breakup. If Anyone think i'm happy about it. Think again. The tears that rolled down my cheeks every single night. Yes. I do miss him. But i don't want to be with him. Hoping that it can make him grow up. Then i Lost my whole Individual Written Assignment! And now. WHERE THE HELL IS MY DRIVING PRACTICAL BOOK!! i GOT 3 LESSONS TOMORROW, 2 LESSONS THE DAY AFTER. AM I GOING TO CANCEL 5 LESSONS AND GET $300 THROWN AWAY JUST LIKE THAT?? Im going crazy. No one understands me. I guess i dont understand myself either. On a roller coaster ride but this time. Its never gonig to be easy. NEVER!

2009-11-19T15:38:00.000+08:00

TEARS FROM BEHIND MY EYES BUT I DO NOT CRY. HAVE BEEN FAKING A SMILE TO SCHOOL FOR THE PAST FEW DAYS. BUT HOW LONG CAN IT LAST. 3 RELATIVELY CLOSE PEOPLE PASSED AWAY THIS WEEK. PLUS ANOTHER ONE OF MY DAD'S BUSINESS PARTNER MUM. ON MONDAY. MY GODMA'S MUM PASSED AWAY. ON WEDNESDAY. MY UNCLE'S MUM PASSED AWAY. TODAY MELVIN'S GRANDDAD AND MY DAD'S BUSINESS PARTNER MUM PASSED AWAY. WANTED TO GO OVER BUT I CANT. MY GRANDMA'S 100TH DAY AFTER DEATH IS ON 13TH DECEMBER. CRYING ALONE AT HOME IS THE ONLY THING I CAN DO NOW. I FEEL SO.... ... CAN I GET 7 DAYS OF COMPASIONATE LEAVE FROM SCHOOL??

2009-10-21T23:21:00.001+08:00

On the day of injury- 14th Oct

1 week later after followup- 21st Oct

I wonder how long it gonna take for my hand to recover. Its hurting me. It sure is. Doctor said that it got something to do with one or some of the tiny blood vessles. Hope it recover soon. Dosage of medication increased. And the taste is alot more bitter than the previous. Im getting a little pissed with this injury.

I cant get anything in my head during 1088 lecture this morning. Felt a little stressed up. And was super moody the whole day. Driving lesson cheered me up. =) PLUS! My patient called me up just as i was about to fall asleep. How sweet. Just to say that she misses me. Might be meeting her up after this week maybe.

Went to watch Julie and Julia with girls during yesterday's long break. Wanted to watch Cloudy with a chance of meatball with Mel two days ago on Monday but the screen played Darah instead. Was kinda pissed and i drag him off. Went to bling my phone cause i saw something that strike me. A cute hello kitty. Milk said that she wanted to take the kitty away. How mean can she be? OMG! Am i suffering from any depression? I kept getting pissed over slight matter. Someone scream to me please. WENYAN! CONTROL YOUR EMOTIONS!!

Three days into school And i think im absorbing well. Except for 1088 which i was sudoku-ing for the two hours till i fell asleep. Two more weeks to Birthday. And i recently noticed that Lele's birthday was just one day after mine. =)

That dog (ROGER LIM KIM TECK) might have already viewed my blog. But who cares. He is still a DOG! DOG of UBI CDC!! WOOF! WOOF!

2009-10-15T19:27:00.000+08:00

Sprained my wrist on my last day of attachment. Sprained by a toilet door at CGH. Lol. I also dont know how it happened. And. Anyone learning driving at ComfortDelGro Driving Centre. Please make sure that a DOG named ROGER LIM KIM TECK is not your DRIVING INSTRUCTOR! That DOG! Freaking hell make me spend that lesson sitting inside the car doing nothing. When i want to drive then he step on the emergency break. Just because of my wrist injury. Better pay me back my $56 if not i make sure i bang you down when i see you on the road! Freaking Bastard! Even your HOD who assessed my condition says that im fine enough to drive! Im studying nursing with a proper O Level certification. What gives you the right to not let me drive. I know how to take care of myself. I know my condition better than you. Freaking DOG!

2009-10-11T22:17:00.001+08:00

I'VE GOT VERY BAD SKIN IRRITATION AND IM ITCHING LIKE MAD. MONDAY AND WEDNESDAY HAVING ATTACHMENT EARLY MORNING. WORKING WITH SOME ITE STUDENTS. I HOPE THEY HAVE SOME INITIATIVE TO DO THEIR OWN WORK AND NOT STICK TO ME LIKE SUPER GLUE. THOU THE SN ASKED ME TO GUIDE THEM. MY WHOLE BODY IS ITCHING LIKE MAD. SHOULD I WEAR PANT SUIT OR SKIRT TO WORK TOMORROW?

ANW. I DID SOMETHING SO STUPID YESTERDAY. I SORT OF PARADED DOWN GREENLINE IN MY NURSE UNIFORM. SOME KIDS TOOK PHOTO WITH ME. CAUSE THEY SAID THEY ASPIRE TO BE A NURSE LIKE ME IN THE FUTURE. LAME. FROM CGH TO CHC TO HOME. WHICH MEANS FROM SIMEI TO PIONEER TO ALJUNIED. WITH MY NAME TAG ON!! GOSH! TOMORROW GONNA WEAR MY UNIFORM DOWN FOR DRIVING LESSONS. MUST REMEMBER TO AT LEAST TAKE OFF MY NAME TAG.=) SO RUSH. 3 PM END WORK-4.15 AT UBI, CDC. GOT ENOUGH TIME?

4 DEATH IN 6 DAYS. 2 MORE DAYS TO GO. HOPE THERE WOULDNT BE ANY MORE DEATH. I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE.

2009-10-08T23:28:00.002+08:00

Yes! I'm still alive! 4 more attachments & 4 more weeks to my birthday! yay! 3 patient passed away. bed 25 on 5th oct, bed 9 on 6th oct and bed 19 on 8th oct. How sad. Is it just coincidence or was it... I dont know how to say. Im tired. Happy yet sad at the same time. Gosh!

2009-10-06T10:56:00.002+08:00

Im on MC again. Left ankle sprained and swelled. Right hip got big patch of blue black the size a little bigger than my palm. And i think im suffering from some right side weakness nonsense. waste my effort trying to wake up at 4am. To fall down and get an mc. WTH!! Experience at A&E was not fun at all. Thank Mr Mike Goh for letting me go back for attachment tomorrow. I want complete my attachment i dont want my life. =) Just joking. Hees

2009-09-21T11:56:00.002+08:00

Hope my biao jie have a blissful marriage. Thou i hate the fact that she still go ahead with the wedding plan despite grandma's death. Someone who can still be so happy on her wedding night. When she didnt even pay grandma her last respect. 4 tables is closed cause the whole lot of relative is not able to attend.
Had fits last night at around 3am. And vommited twice. The whole ordeal ended at 5.20am. Hope its nothing serious. At least there is no more fever! Tomorrow is attachment! But im not looking forward to it. I feel like shit now.

2009-09-19T22:46:00.002+08:00

Grandma hospital bill came. $1100.10 after the government subsidiary. How is my family suppose to pay the bill. Time of admission was at 10.49 on 050909 and time of discharge was at 2.49 on 060909. 4 hours of stay and the bill is that much. Maybe i should not be that stubborn and force my grandma into hospital. Looking at the bill. I remembered how she grabbed the sides of my bed, not wanting to leave my room. I remembered the time she played with saliva when i am hugging her throughout the journey to hospital cause i previously cant stand the stickiness and smell and return home to change. I remembered that my whole shirt was filled with her saliva. Thoughts of her came running through my mind when i was resting just now, sick with high fever, on her massage chair. Flashbacks,
On how she laughed at me when i brought Jing and Mel over to my house to visit her and asking them to leave cause my mum is not at home just the day before she passed away.
On how she said that I'm silly cause i make a big fuss out of things.
When somebody who stepped on Mel's leg on the bus without saying sorry. I simply said in the top of my voice"有一个人很没有礼貌。踩到人家的脚不会讲对不起。我在想你到底是不是男人。" Meaning to say. "There is a someone who have no manners. Step on people's leg don't even know how to say sorry. I'm wondering if you are a man." The whole bus stared at me but i continued shouting. Guess what he did? Stared at me and alight at the next stop.
When the durians that i bought for her not suitable for her liking and i walked back to change for another durian.
When i ordered laksa with extra cockles and the stall owner gave me laksa without cockles plus fish ball. Of cause i went back to change. I wouldn't eat anything i didn't ordered.
When i ordered 鱼肉粗米粉不要菜 THICK FISH BEEHOON WITHOUT VEGETABLES and that stall owner gave me THIN PORK BEEHOON WITH EXTRA VEGETABLES. The owner still tell me i said i wanted meat. And she gave me pork. Of cause i wanted my fish meat in my fish beehoon. If not WHY the hell did i buy from there. Might as well buy from the stall that sells pork noodles. She refuses to change my order. Am so lucky that i have not paid. So i slammed the whole PORK noodles in her face and shouted. NOBODY IN THE RIGHT MIND WILL BUY PORK NOODLES FROM A SHOP WHICH SELLS FISH BEEHOON. And i left.
Plus many more not meant to be said here.
Thinking back. I still miss my grandma. And i learnt to cherish life more. Someone who is healthy and lively could be dead the next day. Who knows when my turn will come. Do you?

2009-09-18T22:37:00.002+08:00

My teeth hurts like mad! Lower is at least 3 times the pain than the upper teeth. Its only after they put the wire on did i notice how bad the shape my teeth was. The wire was zig zag! The kind dentist offered to change to a thinner wire. Thank Goodness! Despite the pain. I still went ahead to eat crab!
Plus Flu vaccine is Freaking Expensive! 1st consultation $20 plus that jab $25! If the 2 polyclinics and my family clinic have the stock for the jab i will not go to that clinic! Argh! Felt cheated!
Popped by his road show place on his 1st day of work on Wednesday. When i told him that i will not go and see him cause im freaking busy! LOL! Prepared Lunch/Dinner for him with a bottle of water. Must be touched ok? I spent 3 hours preparing the food. With a few drip of blood as i cut myself. Cause its the 1st time i make.=) I think the pain is making me forget what i want to type. That explains the disorganised post. Whatever. Bye.

2009-09-15T13:15:00.003+08:00

CAME HOME JUST TO SAY. I PASSED MY FTT!! COMPLETED THE WHOLE 50 QUESTIONS IN 3 MINUTES. START AT 11.45 AND I CAME OUT AT 11.48. PRINTED RESULTS AND 11.49 AND I'M THE 1ST TO LEAVE THE EXAM HALL AGAIN. AFTER BROWSING THROUGH MY QUESTIONS 2 TIMES. LUNCHED. AND I WILL BE GOING BACK TO CDC SOON. FOR MY DRIVING LESSON. KIND OF BORED ALREADY. NO MOTIVATION TO CONTINUE LEARNING DRIVING. SIGH.

2009-09-12T21:30:00.000+08:00

IM CHEERED UP ABIT AFTER GOING BACK TO CITY HARVEST CHURCH TODAY. FTT E TRAIL ON MONDAY FOLLOWED BY FTT TEST ON TUESDAY. AT LEAST NOW I GOT THE MOOD TO STUDY ABIT. THINK ITS TIME TO GET READY FOR MY ATTACHMENT. TIME FOR REVISION!

I GOT BACK THAT VERY GOOD DRIVING INSTRUCTOR FOR MY 3RD LESSON AND IT WAS FUN. THOU I NEARLY GOT BOTH OF US KILLED. WAS VERY SLEEPY AS I DID NOT HAVE ENOUGH SLEEP FOR THE PAST WEEK DUE TO SONGKA. THAT INSTRUCTOR FOR THE 2ND DRIVING LESSON IS "I DONT KNOW HOW TO DESCRIBE" KIND OF PERSON. ASK ME TO DO ALL THE THINGS ON THE ROAD WITHOUT TEACHING. AND HE KEPT SCOLDING ME DURING THE LAST 5 MINUITS OF THE LESSON. SO IRRITATING! HOW YOU EXPECT ME TO KNOW WHEN YOU HAVE NOT TEACH! AND IM NOT IN THE MOOD AT THAT TIME AS WELL.

WONDER HOW WILL MY NEXT LESSON BE LIKE. FOUR WEEKS FROM NOW. WILL I STILL REMEMBER HOW TO DO THOSE HAND FOOT CO-ORDINATION STUFF? I GOT NO IDEA. BACK TO STUDY FOR FTT. AND AFTER TUESDAY CAN STUDY FOR ATTACHMENT STUFF ALREADY. HOPE ATTACHMENT WILL BE EASY. CAUSE MANY PEOPLE SAID THAT CGH IS THE MOST DIRTY HOSPITAL AND HAVE THE MOST HARD TO HANDLE PATIENTS, VISITORS, NURSES AND DOCTORS.

TATA.

2009-09-10T21:16:00.001+08:00

Today is the end of the 5day wake. I cried again. Once at midnight, Once before they close the coffin, Once when we are walking behind the van which is bringing the coffin. And many times at Mandai Crematorium and Columbarium.

Many things happened.
As we prepared the Pink packets the past few days. My cousins and i added a $2 into the usual pack of $2s. Meaning to say. All the pink packet was with $2 while 1 have $4. And we said that. Whoever gets the $4 means that Grandma is watching over him/her. And will make sure that he/she will be well and safe. A 1 in a 100 chance to get the $4. Cause there is 100 pink packets. What made is even harder was that we spread the pink packets all over the table mess it up and we collected it back.

On Monday night. My uncle said he wanted to ask Grandma for 4D and he went to sleep beside her. After that he woke up at 4am saying that the number was below the coffin. My cousin and i got nothing to do. So we decided to kill boredom by looking for numbers under the coffin. Which was made up of scratches. The number is ****... And it is also the last four digit of 2 of the telephone numbers of their phonebook!

On Tuesday night, My uncle rent that extra space that was not needed for that day to some idiots and he pushed the blame to my dad. Same thing happened this morning. Lucky they wasn't caught. If not. I make sure my uncle wouldn't get out of this matter as well.

Usual quarrel among the adults over money matters. Cause each of them needs to fork out extra sum of $$ for the wake which was first paid by my dad. They argued for at least 1 whole hour and i fell asleep! Home by 7pm, eat and now I'm going to rest my tired souls for FTT trail test and Driving lessons tomorrow. Tata.

I promised my grandma silently just now that i would be strong. No more tears. Cause she don't want me to be like that. Yes. I got the pack with the $4. And I'm keeping it as safely as i can. Cause she is watching over me. =) Do you believe in life after death?

2009-09-10T21:16:00.000+08:00

2009-09-06T09:25:00.000+08:00

Grandma collapse and is in a very critical condition now. Heart attack, Internal bleeding, High Glucose Level, Low Blood Count, And many more shit! It was stabilised at 1.30 pm and we decided to go home and have a quick shower before going back down to the hospital. Just as i reach home, received a call from that grandma is in a very critical condition. and is only breathing at 18BPM. Rushed down and reach TTSH at 2.30. Cried as i accompany my grandma through the last few minutes of her life. Yes. She passed away on 060909 at 0249. Cried even worst after that. Waited while the nurse cleansed the body. Then collect the body from the mortuary. When i see her face again. Tears rolled down my cheeks. For once in the past 2 years since i left FCBC. I prayed in tongues! And in a very natural way. Thanks to my other relative who allowed me to have that one minute alone with her. I guess it was GOD telling me that. Grandma suffered long enough. I don't know what to do right now. Going for SongKa for the next few days. And YES. I lost all(if not most) my confidence to be a nurse.
Till Then. Cya.

2009-09-05T11:27:00.002+08:00

MY HOLIDAYS SEEMS TO HAVE NO HOLIDAYS. BTT JUST ENDED NOT LONG AGO. NOW BUSY STUDYING FOR FTT AND DRIVING PRACTICAL. ALL IN ALL. I ONLY GOT NEXT NEXT WEDNESDAY AND THURSDAY THAT I'M FREE. SERIOUSLY. TWO CONTINUOUS DRIVING PRACITCAL WILL DRIVE ME CRAZY. YESTERDAY'S 1 LESSON ALREADY LEFT ME HALF DEAD EVEN WHEN MY DRIVING INSTRUCTOR WAS FUNNY. KEEP SAYING THAT IM SHORT WHEN HE IS 1.5 HEADS TALLER THAN ME. SO FOR REVENGE. I PLAYED WITH THE INSTRUCTOR'S EMERGENCY BRAKE WHEN HE IS DRIVING, STEER THE WHEEL LEFT AND RIGHT WHEN ON A STRAIGHT ROUTE AND PISSING HIM OFF BY CALLING HIM MR QUEK SWEE YONG INSTEAD OF ERIC. GOT ONE TIME WHEN I COULD NOT MANAGE THE TURN AND HE REACH OUT TO THE STEERING WHEEL TO HELP ME AND HE ACCIDENTALLY HIT MY HAND. HE SAID SORRY SO MANY TIMES AS IF MELVIN WAS GOING TO KILL HIM FOR ACCIDENTALLY TOUCHING MY HAND? LOL! RUSHED TO DO MY PROVISIONAL DRIVING LISENSE(PDL) AS HE SAID AND BOOK MY 4 E-TRAIL FTT TESTS. AFTER 1ST PRACTICAL LESSON MET UP WITH JING DA JIE FOR DINNER. SOME SMALL TALKS AND HOME TO TAKE CARE OF MY AHMA. SHE IS NOT FEELING WELL AND I GUESS I WILL HAVE TO MISS CHURCH AGAIN. I WISH TO BE BACK IN CHC SOON. BUT MY GRANDMA'S CONDITION. THINK I WILL HAVE TO MISS CHURCH FOR LIKE AT LEAST ANOTHER 5-7 WEEKS. UTI IS SCARY.

IM NOT PREPARED FOR MY HOSPITAL ATTACHMENT WHICH IS LIKE TWO WEEKS LATER. SHALL DO ALL THOSE REVISION AFTER MY FTT ON THE 15TH. IM TOTALLY STRESSED OUT. ARGH!! SOMEONE, ANYONE, PLEASE ACCOMPANY ME TO THE THEME PARK OR THE BEACH TO RELIEVE SOME STRESS. HEES. BACK TO MUGGING FOR FTT. BYE!=)

2009-08-31T00:00:00.000+08:00

RASHES SUCKS! I FEEL SO ITCHY ALL OVER.

MY DAD PURPOSELY ASKED MY MUM TO ADD PORK INTO ALL THE DISHES THIS DINNER. SCREAMS! I ATE FEW MOUTH AND THAT'S IT. WEIRD THAT IM ALLERGIC TO PORK. HAD RUNS AND I SWEAR I WOULDNT BE TOUCHING PORK FOR AT LEAST THE NEXT FEW MONTHS. I HATE THE AFTER EFFECT ALTHOUGH I LOVE THE TASTE.

I HOPE GRANDMA IS GOING TO BE DISCHARGE SOON. I MISS HER ALOT.

ANYWAY.
HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO AHMA JN.

2009-08-28T10:57:00.000+08:00

Grandma got to go hospital again. I felt so useless. I felt so helpless. I'm tearing yet nobody knows. Ambulance coming in 15min. As i wait. Tears rolled down my eyes again. I sucks!

2009-08-23T06:03:00.000+08:00

How would you feel if you visit a friend's house and he asked you to sleep outside the toilet. So what if she is a maid? Isn't she a human? And by saying that because she is a maid. So she cant sleep in my room and help me take care of grandma. Then can you, the father of the employer(me) of the maid sleep outside the toilet of a aircon room? Why not you try being in my shoes and wake up every 30mins in the middle of the night from 10pm all the way till 3am before you can have a good night sleep. Then wake up at 7am just because grandma wakes up at that time. Thanks to my little brother's act of self pity. His little bit of tears did made my night easier. At least i can sleep in peace last night. I still wonder if my dad is a human or not? His act is simply inhumane. MY mum is having long term illness and still have to treat him as a king? Who the hell does he think he is? Aunt came and as usual quarelled with that inhuman creature called my dad. He who thinks that everyone is wrong except him. WTF! I HATE MY DAD!

2009-08-20T00:10:00.001+08:00

我真的开心吗？我真的快乐吗？我真的不知道。

2009-08-13T22:16:00.000+08:00

Grandma is finally out of hospital after the 10 days long torture. Was by her side during physiotherapy today and the physiotherapist said that my grandma was lazy. LOL! She didn't want to practice on climbing the stairs. Then off to find BF. And back home. My mum put a chair in the middle of the long flight of stairs for my grandma to rest on. So innovative! Hahas. My flu is back after disappearing for 1 day! Thanks to the icecream. I guess. Going to school for mask fitting tomorrow then down to driving centre! Cant wait for my first lesson! Soon i can drive to school! But should i? Petrol is expensive leh!

CRYSTAL IS A HAPPY GIRL!

2009-08-09T11:06:00.000+08:00

IM SO NOT FINE. DOWN WITH FLU, FEVER, COUGH, SNEEZE, SORETHROAT AND BODYACHES. AND IM FEELING WEIRD. HAD NOSEBLEED IN THE MIDDLE OF MY SLEEP FOR A 2ND TIME THIS YEAR. AND I FEEL LIKE VOMMITING AGAIN. TELLITUBBIES SAYS:"AGAIN AGAIN!!". LOL. KEPT ON SLEEPING SINCE YESTERDAY EVENING AND I STILL FEEL TIRED, VERY TIRED. AND FOR GOD SAKE. THE PATIENT BESIDE MY GRANDMA IS A H1N1 PATIENT! COULD I HAVE GOTTON IT FROM THERE? ANSWERS LEFT UNKNOWN. I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN NOT TO VISIT MY GRANDMA WHEN IM ALREADY DOWN WITH SLIGHT FLU. NOW MY NOSE IS RUNNING LIKE TAP WATER. CAN ANYONE TELL ME HOW TO IMPROVE MY IMMUNE SYSTEM? BEFLORE I DROP DEAD WHILE DOING ATTACHMENT THIS SEPTEMBER? AND 1 GOOD NEWS IS. MY GRANDMA IS FEELING ALOT BETTER. PRAISE THE LORD. I WANT TO THANK BF, CHC AND FCBC PEEPS FOR ALL THE PRAYERS. ESPECIALLY 1 UNKNOWN DA JIE(IDK HER NAME) WHO HUGGED ME AND PRAY WITH ME. AND I ALWAYES TEARED AFTER THAT. IS THAT DUE TO THE STRONG PRESENSE OF GOD? OR IS IT JUST ME BEING TOUCHED BY THE PRAYER MADE BY 1 UNKNOWN SISTER?

2009-08-08T08:46:00.000+08:00

Grandma is in the Operation Theater and im so worried. Hope she will be well again. Flu vacine isn't helping. Im having slight flu again. LOL

2009-08-06T23:01:00.000+08:00

Just when i thought everything got a little better. My grandma pulled out her tube for oxygen. When my Staff Nurse cousin told her that her surgery would be tomorrow and she will have to be transfered to ICU after surgery. She didn't explain properly and my grandma thought that she is critically ill. GOSH!! When in actual fact. She will be transfered into ICU so as to better monitor her condition. If i went to visit my grandma just now instead of giving excuses saying that i'm tired. Things wouldn't have turned out this way. This teaches me not to take things for granted when grandma's health improved yesterday. I'm missing her already. I HATE the word "TIRED" cause it nearly made me lose my grandma. Thank goodness i got quite a strong sixth sense. My eyelids twitch just now signaling that something bad is happening and i called my Cousin who is on shift in NUH in the opposite ward just in time when the incident took place. Should i go to the hospital tomorrow morning before my school starts?

2009-08-05T00:08:00.004+08:00

That's my beloved grandma!

Went to hospital for a 2nd time and grandma's condition is getting worst. Blood sugar level raise till 29.4 from yesterday's 19.9. Having Fever of 38.9. Keep complaining of pain in the fractured area. Waiting for a heart specialist to check on her heart condition before doing the surgery. There is two choices. Either to put in screws in first operation and wait for a few more months then go for a second operation or have surgery on the head of femur bone and attached a metal bowl like thing or whatever you call that.

And the doctor said that: "If possible, the heart specialist will see her tomorrow morning and have her surgery tomorrow evening.". And i highlighted the word IF to her doctor. What if her surgery is delayed? Will anything happen? What if the surgery is rushed through before solving the current signs and symptoms. Will there be further complications?

I'm in such a confused state i do not know how to carry on with life. It seems that life stopped for a moment. I do not have the mood to study now and tomorrow is my biology practical test. How??

Thanks BF, FCBC peeps, CHC peeps for the prayers. I will stay strong. I will always remember what someone once told me. That Crystal is a strong girl and that she would fight off anything. This time I'm not fighting alone. I'm fighting my grandma's illnesses with my grandma and this whole group of friends. And i strongly believe that i will win this fight together with her.

Wendy Jie MSNed me this: "What do you do on difficult days? Hold on to all that God is and all that He does. God is still working for you. All things are still working together for good (Rom. 8:28). Don't turn away from Him. Wait. He will bring you out of your affliction. * * * Whenever you experience a difficult day, encourage yourself by focusing on God's character and His attributes--power, loving-kindness and faithfulness."

Thanks peeps. I'm feeling a lot better. =)

Crystal is sad yet what can i do?

2009-07-23T02:28:00.002+08:00

Tired yet i cant sleep. Guess im gonna be a panda soon. Cant get anything in my brain. How? Do you believe in everlasting love? I used to. But im not very sure now. Sigh. What happened to the cheerful Crystal? Cramps and upset tummy gonna kill me. Wanted to see a doctor for my bad cramps but.. I GOT NO $$!

2009-07-22T21:09:00.000+08:00

我好想哭, 可是找不到流泪的角落. 我好想笑, 可是找不到坚强的理由. 如果把累当成借口, 可以打发我和你聊天对话, 那我想更干脆一点的说, "我真的很累".
你是对的, 请你继续那伤人的举动, 我不在乎. 我们任性的伤害, 像一场无聊的比赛. 每天吵着爱与不爱, 忘了怎么不被伤害.
I don't mind you calling me names. But calling me that, don't you think you have gone too far? Think i will have to get used to going to school and home alone this few days to cool down. Think i can save on the past 2 weeks worth of happy post due to this 5 letter word that you said. You crushed my heart leaving me crying alone in the dark and gloomy night. Just hope to sleep and study my time away. I need time to cool down. Till then.. Tata. =)

2009-07-10T10:59:00.002+08:00

Dad finally allowed me to learn driving! And i cant wait for September to come earlier. =)

2009-07-07T23:31:00.002+08:00

Gosh. I'm starting to worry that H1N1 might hit my family. My bro's campsite, in his unit got 1 guy down with H1N1. My bro got nearly all the symptoms. High fever, Cough, Flu, Sore Throat, Body Aches and Headache. Now waiting for his phlegm test result to be out on Friday. Meanwhile. I'm not very safe. BF is sick. So is my brother. Whose next. I just recovered from my massive illness just few days ago! Hope i wouldn't be sick again. My immune system is very weak! ARGH!

2009-07-07T10:32:00.002+08:00

Had an outing on Monday and it was so fun! Especially when we reached harbourfront centre and saw a baby using a water float to stay afloat and practice swimming. It was a boy and he was just so adorable when he splashing and splishing around in the water tub with his parents watching and smiling at him.

Had a really fun time with baby at the vivocity timezone and we spent like $20 on credits for games alone, first time baby spent it so happily, hahas.

2009-07-03T23:38:00.004+08:00

Went for a haircut again. 2nd time in 3 weeks. Sort of regretted it. Asked to layer and snip around 1 inch of my hair. And guess what? Around 5 inch of my hair is snipped off! Shall bring a ruler to the salon the next time i decide to snip off my hair. Most probably next year. Argh! I miss my long hair.='( Feel like going to do hair extensions again. Or maybe i shall go and buy clip on hair extensions will do? If i still do not get use to the length that is.

2009-06-30T23:45:00.003+08:00

绕过了半个地球最终找到你。

和你在一起的每一天都永远是我最珍贵的记忆，打死我也不会放弃。

让我的生命为你挡风遮雨，给你幸福快乐吧。活着对我来说，根本都不是为了我自己，而是为了你。

不管你有多么不开心，我都会用我的宽容和疼爱去保护你，不再让任何人伤害你。

请原谅我的不成熟，我真的不想让你不开心但是总是弄巧成拙。

就让你所有的痛，通通都给我承受。只要你过得开心，我就满足了。

2009-06-27T03:56:00.003+08:00

Its 3.56 am now. Not that i didn't sleep. But i just woke up with my nose fully blocked. I'm tired. Gonna eat some flu tablets and off to bed. Argh! I hate being sick!

Nearly 5am. The cold is killing me. The 1st time i felt this cold. All the way deep down in my bones. after wearing 2 sweaters and covering quilt blanket over me. I look like an Eskimo.

Had bird nest together with medications. Hopefully it wouldn't cause any side effects. ^^

2009-06-25T21:08:00.003+08:00

Went to polyclinic this morning with BF as i'm very sick. Down with high fever(38-39.2), cough, on-off flu, sorethroat, headache and bodyaches. Took phlegm sample to test for H1N1. Results will be out two days later. Hopefully i'm fine. Currently self quarintine myself to prevent the spread of germs. Reach home at 1.30pm and slept all the way while BF went back to school. Woke up only at 5.45 when BF returned. From east to west then to east again just to take care of me. How fortunate can i be? Just ate medication and is feeling drowsy. And worst still. It tasted AWFUL!

Dilemma...

2009-06-18T00:16:00.002+08:00

So here I am to post again...

Been picking stones for 2 days straight already, well inclusive of today although I didnt do any work.

The 2 days were tiring but fun cause it felt good to have baby around by my side whenever I am slogging at her sand mountain, hahas..

We had fried carrot cake on the first day for dinner and it was darn delicious hahas...maybe I was too hungry but anyways, it was a happy evening spent at baby's frontyard lols and I worked til almost 11pm before I kissed baby goodbye and went home.

The second day's work was due to us having to buy our dinner, lols!!! We bought a 10 pack indo mee goreng and we actually ate up 5 of them for dinner alone, I was simply amazed at what baby and I accomplish, wahahahas, 5 whole packets of maggi mee goreng lols...

2009-06-13T01:24:00.000+08:00

Well, soon it's going to be the first month together with my beloved baby and I can't wait to see her in awhile. We have been meeting everyday practically but still can't seem to get enough of each other. Maybe it is just me but I'm sure baby misses me too right? hehes...

Recently baby hurt her hand and I was so worried her studies and life might be affected permanently but fortunately, after having a x-ray taken her hand is alright, the right hand that is.

Went to the bazaar just outside baby's place and had a fun time there. I tried out the ball throwing game and won a pack of 'pick up sticks' lols... Initially wanted the big prize but throwing skills were below par and couldn't make it hahas, felt so embarassed. There was one weird thing that kept happening while walking around the bazaar with baby, my head kept knocking into those balls hung by the vendors. Sounds wrong I guess, hahahas..but ya, I was inevitably knocking my head against all the different types of balls and baby had a good laugh. It felt so heartwarming to see baby's smile and it serves as a form of happiness for me too as I build my happiness upon baby's.

Saw a shark bag when we walked somemore and baby took a liking to it, hahas, gonna get that for our one month hehs..baby apparently loves it alot and the vendor just so happens to have 2 left =)

Kinda late already I guess and I promised baby to sleep early too so shall end my post here, til next time then =)

Baby, I Love You...

2009-06-04T14:47:00.005+08:00

Its 2.50pm and I'm at school library. Just finish part of Group discussion for psychology. I'm not like some people who blog more than 2 times a day. I just drop by my own blog when I'm free at most once every day to jot down my monotone life. The only few peoples blog that i tag is Qing lin's blog, Connie's blog and some other ex-classmates from Bedok View Secondary School(BVSS) and my sisters from church. For what do i need to tag on your blog when i do not know you well? I don't find the need to. And i don't think i need to waste my time to do it either. =) If you want to. Just let me know. Then i can use my laptop directly in front of you for you to see. And tag a "hi" And you can go check the IP address. If it is me, I will definitely apologise. But it is not me, what for i apologise. If you just want to hear a word of apology, can just find any Tom, Dick or Harry to apologise to you.

Edited. He went to the lecture hall and Wenyang asked u all to go out. But you didn't. So is that my fault or yours? I said before that i will not apologise for the things i did not do. I will only ask him to apologise if he wants to. Does it means that when she came to ask me out, i don't have to at all? And look at the time that person tag at your blog. I'm having lessons! Some more in the same classroom as you. Did i even take out my laptop? Did i even take out my hand phone? Obviously the clue is from my blog. Where else if they didnt read my blog. Think FAR. Think BIG. So many cases has its twist and turns. The best solution is to check IP address. It's you whom i think is too scared to check the IP address. Or is it that you don't know how to?

2009-06-02T20:49:00.003+08:00

Freak it! I failed my Practical exam!! Set so high standard cause two my cousins were nurses? So frigging unfair!! And with such HIGH standard that you set. You are expecting more than an A from me. Hello! The max even if i get full marks also just an A. Arghs!! Can't you treat me like other ordinary student? So UNFAIR!! Tomorrow got Remedial training for practical. You look like a MONSTER. Especially when you are assessing us. I got alot to say. But when i look into your eyes, My mind went blank. Gahs. Pissed to the max! So unfair!!!!!! Lecturers are MONSTER!!

My Baby, My World

2009-06-01T23:16:00.002+08:00

Crystal stands for simplicity and pureness in love for me.

I know I truly love her and its all that matters. Pertaining to today's outing and day spent with my baby, I would say it's mixed feelings thatI'm getting.

Why so? Because Baby is the most important person in my life other than my mother right now and every little action from her will turn my world upside down. We had our kiss rather early in the relationship but I want baby to know that I am prepared to lay down my life for her happiness and I don't expect anything in return but only for her to love me truly like I do to her too.

Whatever my baby does, I will always be behind her to support her and help her along. When she becomes a nurse in future, I will pray for her to excel in her field of work and become a well sought after nurse that every hospital would want. Told baby my vision for our future and we both like kids alot so guess we gonna start on that when I marry her in about 5 years down the road or so. Hehehs, I'm so excited just talking about my baby =)

My baby is the world to me and I want anybody who is trying to snatch her away from me to know this, I will defend my love with my life! Rahsssss

2009-05-31T00:04:00.004+08:00

One of my braces wire broke and guess what. I swallowed the broken wire. My throat hurts like mad. Tears started flowing down my cheeks. Thank BF for being by my side. Vomited twice. And all my dinner came out! I force feed myself 5 cups of water. Hoping that the wire will go down and leave my body with the smelly poo poo.=)

Mr Aaron Chee LiYao Message me again. Retributions!! That bitch also cheated on him. Why didn't she cheat him of his money as well? So i say.

What comes around goes around.

Now do you believe me? No use saying that I'm right as this junction cause I'm not gonna give up this love so true to be back with a jerk like you. Enough of heartbreaks that you had given me. I'm sadistic. I feel so happy about what happened to you. Wahahahahas. You asked yourself how many chances have been given. How many hearts you have broken. How many women and clients have been cheated. You deserve no sympathy.

我的心很小。只容纳的下一个人。BF took this one little space in my heart. It first belong to you. Yet you didn't treasure it. Now it goes to someone else. No use fighting for it. Cause I'm no longer the old me. I fight for my rights to get the love that i wanted. To be with the guy i want to marry. To lead the life i wanted to live. And BF is able to give it to me. Just a simple Love life. Yet so fulfilling. Who says money is needed in LOVE? It is the heart that is needed. Not money.
I would rather be poor and suffer with the one i love than to be rich and suffer with the one i do not love.

Boyfriend Girlfriend Poem

You chose weed over me

I'm getting tired of you
I don't wanna laugh.
I just wanna cry all over again.
You messed me up when you cheated.
You chose weed over me.
I can't forgive you.
My heart needs time to heal.
I don't need you or your weed.
I can't love you anymore.
You need to let go of me.
You don't need me any way
you have your weed to love.
I was never your girl, you cheated.
Now I wanna laugh at you.
I wanna dry those tears all over again
You made my life better by leaving.
Go love the weed.
I have a new man to love me.
Who won't chose weed over me.
Now me and my man are going
to scream goodbye.

Melvin Tan Chye Huat is my man. Whoever dare steal him from me will die a horrible death!! RAHS!!

2009-05-28T22:56:00.003+08:00

I was nearly late for school today. Thank goodness Melvin Dear wake me up with his 14 calls despite not having his handphone with him. Thank him for waking up at 4.58am even though he sleep after 2am. Thank him for rushing TWO 1st bus down to my home just to accompany me to school. I'm very touched. Had western breakfast today. And realised Banana dont like hashbrown and i dont like toasted bread with butter. Next time shall change with her. Hehes. Had a total of 4 hours lesson and 4 hours break. How cool can it be? Keep disturbing Daniel aka XiaoQiang about the Mcdonald's cup that he owed me from the bet on Monday. Lol. And he really bring it to lecture during the last lecture of the day!! Hahas. Went down to woodlands to meet BF after school and went to play arcade. Hahas. That is the good point of studying in a poly. Arcade after school! Went to my house area and carrot cake and hokkien mee as usual. Hahas. My back hurts alot and i feel like dying! Someone please save me!!

2009-05-26T23:15:00.002+08:00

Being in love and Saying I LOVE YOU is most beautiful feeling. Love make us strong. Everyone has different opinion on love. Some people say that love is nothing while for others love is life. Some people say that love only gives you tears while others say that love takes lots of joy and happiness in their life. But let me tell you one thing that those who are in love are more happy than those who are against love. So, make a decision to love more and more. Spread love all over in your family, your friends, your office and everywhere in the world.
And so i say. Love makes the world go round.

2009-05-26T00:35:00.001+08:00

Dear asked me to blog but i'm abit lazy. So i shall update this space again when i'm not that lazy. =) Dear. I blogged!!

My heartfelt words to dearest Crystal...

2009-05-22T00:07:00.002+08:00

Well dear,

Before I realised it, I'm in love with you already. Yes it sounds corny or cheesy whichever is better, but it's true. Just want to thank you for accepting me and liking me for who I am because I know my future is with you and now that I have you in the walk of life, I will cherish you every moment that I'm alive.

Because you love me wholeheartedly, I promise to make you the happiest woman ever although I am unable to give you the world, but I will give you my all.

Baby, that's how much I love you. The world can be against me for all I care, but so long I have your love and support always, I will give up the world to be with you my whole life.

I have my imperfections but I am sure that your love and care for me will make me a better man as I envision a blissful future for us.

Hugs baby dear....Yours truly, Melvin =)

2009-05-20T23:21:00.000+08:00

L- is for the way you Look at me
0- is for the Only one i see
V- is Very very extraordinary
E- is Even more than anyone that i adore
and love is all that i can give to you
love is more than just a game for 2
Two in love can make it, take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you.

I'm very happy today. Cause he woke up very early in the morning just to send me to school! Thou he forgotten my ham and cheese sandwich.=( But due to the fact that he cried last night. He is forgiven.=) Both of us have been emo lately. Spent some time with him while waiting for Banana at the MRT station. Lessons today is bored! Nearly fell asleep. Gosh! Thank goodness i'm sitting right at the front. Seems so guai arh? And it was freezing cold! Went for WeiQi followed by meeting MY MELVIN. HE IS MINE! Don't snatch if not i bite you! Had dinner at the coffeeshop his mum is working at. Then he sent me home. Met some of his friends and he thought that i was jealous. For what? I don't see the need to be jealous. Crap away on our way home. And here am i blogging. Hehes.

If loving you is wrong, then I don't wanna be right. My love for you is stronger and brighter than any light. The way we must go is long, but we'll win every fight.

Right?

Jason Mraz Lyrics

"I'm Yours" Official Video

2009-05-19T20:25:00.003+08:00

Guess what? I got ZERO/40 for 2 of my ICAs. Happy or sad? My mind is in a whirl now. How i wish i can turn back time. I wouldn't have brought him to my mum's shop. It seems that my mum do not like him. Or is it just not at the right place. IDK. My confidence level once again hit rock bottom. It sure did. EMOed all the way back home. Then cried silently. He isn't there for me. Tears rolled down my cheeks as i made the 1st step into home. A place where i could cry my heart out without anyone seeing. ITS COMPLICATED. If i were to choose between you and my family. It is sure that my family will come first. I always believed in "You couldn't choose your parents but you could choose your friends" No matter what. They are still my parents.

LET GO OF THE HANDS OF YOUR LOVE BUT DON'T LET GO OF GODS HAND FOR HE MAYBE HOLDING YOUR LOVE ON HIS OTHER HAND TO LET YOU HOLD EACH OTHER AGAIN=).

I lose confidence. Both at studies and at relationship. I can feel your love and you knew that i feel the same way towards you. The only way we can be together is to try and let my parents accept you. My Little bro seems to like you. IDK WHAT TO DO NEXT! Kept replaying the same song that i previously put in my blog. Cause i lost all my confidence. Looking at that little pink crocodile. I saw you, your care and your love. Do you see it in that care bear that i left with you?

Lyrics | Taylor Swift lyrics

2009-05-18T22:10:00.002+08:00

I'm both happy and sad. Can't communicate with the class. Especially my Sub group. I feel like dropping out of nursing. I really do. This kind of mixed feelings. This is the 1st time i felt it. And i tell you. IT SUCKS! I don't know why. The only thing i can do is to run away from problems. I'm afraid to face up to it. Thankfully he is by my side to take care of me. I LOVE HIM.

Immature love says: 'I love you because I need you.' Mature love says: 'I need you because I love you.' GOT IT?? Which group do you belong to? Think before answering.

2009-05-17T20:40:00.000+08:00

Fuck it! CB! No use asking me to go school tomorrow cause as you know. I wouldn't. I have every rights you know that? Even if she kneel on durian shell for the whole night. I will not go for ICA presentation. Pissed off to the max! I'm going to get letters written. Be it by whomsoever. And it will be submitted to mentor Huang Fang. By tomorrow. On the better note. I'm happy today. Cause M****n accompanied me to complete my things and went for dance. Played on train then go for dinner. Just to reach home and found out that she pissed me off to the max. What is the meaning of changing my part when you have already told me that 2 weeks ago that i'm doing closure. Going school for the elective module though. And meeting him after school again. I MISS HIM.

Close ur eyes.
Close ur eyes..., Relax ur body and stop breathing as long as U can.
Now breath... I miss u as much as u missed the air.

2009-05-17T00:30:00.001+08:00

Doctor's prescription 4 u

Doctor's prescription 4 u. A cute little smile 4 breakfast. More laughs 4 lunch. Lots of happiness for dinner. Doctor's fee? An sms when u r free.

TaLk 2 me wHen i'm boReD, kiSS me wHen i'm saD, hug me wHen i cRy, caRe 4 me wHen i diE, loVe me When i'm sTill Alive...

2009-05-15T19:45:00.004+08:00

The Mosquito

Oei! You stupid mosquito!
Stop sucking me like there’s no tomorrow!
You can’t keep still when I try to hit you,
But when I do, I’ll make mincemeat out of you.

You are ugly, and your legs are very hairy.
I know that because I last time took biology.
You spread dengue, and also HIV.
The latter is not true, but it rhymes very nicely.

The other day when I went to the zoo,
You happily bite me when I was in the loo.
I have no idea why you are such a fool,
Because really very smelly, my freshly made poo poo.

I have decided to wage war on you.
You better get ready to escape on cue.
When I see you, I’ll move in for the kill.
The pain you feel will be very real :)

Oei! You stupid mosquito!
Stop sucking me like there’s no tomorrow!
Please keep still when I try to hit you,
And when I do, I’ll make mincemeat out of you.

One of my nonsensical poem written out of boredom. Why mosquito? Cause Mosquito is my nickname back then. When everyone will call me WenZii instead of WenYan. Rahs. I met M****n just now. He made sandwiches 4 me. So caring that he cut off the sides of the bread that i don't eat. So gan dong! Haha. Then sent me home. Lol! He is not my future husband just as yet! Its too early to say anything. Stop making wild guess. Cause I'M SINGLE AND LOVING IT! I do not want to tie myself down cause of someone i just met. =). In future if we are ever together i will let you know. But Qing lin don't anyhow spread as yet! 4th week of school just gone past without me knowing. Next week is ICA presentation week. Starting to feel the stress not. Haha. I want to cut my hair short! But many tell me i should not. Why?! I spent time doing a bedside lamp for myself last night. How i miss studying D&T! Pictures will be up soon. If i'm not lazy. Hahas.

2009-05-14T14:47:00.003+08:00

I'M FRIGGING PISSED OFF. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I FELT LIKE GIVING UP AND GOING BACK TO ENGINEERING. FISH IT! THIS SUBGROUP IS SO NOT FOR ME. SO MUCH OF MISCOMMUNICATION. SO MUCH OF MISUNDERSTANDINGS. SO MUCH OF NOT UNDERSTANDING WHAT IS GROUP WORK. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO NOW? WHAT WILL MY NEXT STEP BE? I'M REALLY CLUELESS. FROM HAVING LOW BLOOD PRESSURE TILL NOW HAVING HIGH RISK OF HAVING HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE. WTH! ALL CAUSE OF MY ITCHY HANDS TRYING TO CHANGE COURSE. I THINK I WILL BE MUCH HAPPIER STUDYING BIO MEDICAL ENGINEERING LOR! ARGH! SHOULD I DROP THIS COURSE AND CHANGE COURSE? OR SHOULD I STAY ON AND PERSEVERE? LIFE IS SO UNFAIR!!

2009-05-13T21:00:00.000+08:00

2009-05-11T17:43:00.000+08:00

P.I.E today was fun! Learnt and tried out informal socialising. Most of them thought that i like HELLO KITTY because of my email address on the "name card". I'm so not looking forward to the Nursing lab lesson tomorrow. Can't imagine what will we be doing by the sight of the notes. OMG! Someone save me! Am i in the correct course or not?

2009-05-10T13:57:00.003+08:00

Went Kukup Malaysia yesterday for Seafood! Its suppose to be for lunch. And guess what time we reach? 4pm! Then went for a tour in a sampan to see the fishing village there. The tour guide is a 16 yr old boy and he called me little girl. WTF! My cough is going from bad to worst. Shall eat more spicy food to worsen the situation and it will heal in no time. LOL! Anyway. Today is Mothers Day. I Wish all Mothers in the world a HAPPY MOTHERS DAY! Got to go prepare for mothers day dinner tonight. Tata. My life is monotone that describes my monotone blog. Ha. Stop asking me why.

2009-05-09T01:11:00.009+08:00

It is today that i cease to believe in your every single word. You proved me wrong. There is nothing in the world that you spoke could be trusted. But i also need to thank you as it help me find the truth in myself. Jerk! Stop lying about paying her back her pay when you did not want to. Stop lying that you will return me my things when you do not want to! Bastard! Yes! I will defame your company till the day you return me my things! Happy? All this will only be stopped when you return me my things. People like you can never be trusted. Irritating!

Today so funny. Went for CCA orientation with Banana. And we went into the wrong room. Elaborate more next time if i remember. If not this is it. Lol. I'm kind of lazy. Medical results shows i'm fine! So happy. Or what's not. Anyway before i forget. Happy VESAK DAY! My post is becoming more and more random.

2009-05-08T11:24:00.002+08:00

Look like me or not? Ha. Found this picture taken back in 2005 i think. 4 years difference. I didnt change alot. Did i?

OMG!! I saw 2 GAY at the MRT kissing and hugging right infront of me! WTF is wrong with the world.

2009-05-07T20:50:00.002+08:00

OMG! I'm currently in love with sticky candies. Do visit "http://sticky.com.sg/" Thou I did not go down by myself to buy it. My Godma send it to me. 1 small bottle. And i finished the whole thing in less than an hour. My candy wrote."Crystal is loved". So sweet of her right? Bet it is mre expensive to get it costomised than to get it off the rack. I want more sticky candies!!!

Sticky – Singapore

The Central
6 Eu Tong Sen Street
B1-54/55, Singapore 059817

Anybody wants to go down with me?

2009-05-07T10:08:00.003+08:00

Bored in school. Using this 1 hour break to type this post. Lessons end at 6! Too bad last lesson is Bio LAB. If not i would have just scanned my card and go home. I'm feeling so sick now. Someone save me. I'm restricting myself to most of the food in hope that i will get well soon but to no avail. Guess i shall use the fighting poison with poison method and eat my favorite McSpicy(without lettuce). It always make me get well. But now my throat is already hurting so much. I'm afraid i might just lose my voice. I'm confused. Don't know what i should do. Perhaps i should really go to a doctor. And EAT MEDICATION!

2009-05-06T22:41:00.003+08:00

Seems like i'm always lagging the world by one day. Notice that by the start of my post. YESTERDAY. Lol. Yesterday lesson was from 10-6 with FOUR hours break! Used it to do ICA preparation. And that is when those three kids. Banana, Milk and Lychee got into a Photo-taking war. Running around the table we used for discussion. I'm wondering if i'm the one in the wrong school or are they the ones in the wrong school. At least time not wasted. Today lesson was 11am-1pm. Such boring lecture. Ha. If i do not have to do ICA preparation i wouldn't be in school today. End up slacking in school till 4pm. Then accompanied Banana to wait for time before we, milk and me left for home and she left for her scholarship interview. My Flu is getting worst day by day. Its like a spoilt tap now.Wondering if i should go hospital tomorrow or go to school. I do not want to be admitted! Tomorrow is a long day. 8am-6pm to be exact. and my Friday end at 9pm! Spells COOL! Ha. I'm partially mad due to my sickness. God. I think i have to be admitted to IMH instead. Say i'm stubborn or whatever. I doubt i will go see doctor till i faint in school and have to be admitted by ambulance. That is just so me.

2009-05-05T20:21:00.002+08:00

Fever came back this morning and i swear. I felt like dying. But most said i look better than yesterday. Maybe cause i didn't vomit today? I found out that honey water taste bitter. Is that the taste or is my taste bud spoilt. Went home by bus and i find taking bus could be a wonderful thing when you are sick! Board bus 13 at YCK interchange. And guess what. The bus is crowded yet nobody dare to sit beside me, infront of me and behind me! Cause of cough and flu. One girl even took out one big box of mask and distribute to the whole bus! So classic. Seriously speaking. Do coughing and having flu = swine flu? Haven't tell them that i got fever and sorethroat yet already so cautious of me. But also good. I got more fresh air! Next time shall try calling somebody and say: "I enjoyed my weekend holiday at Mexico!". The whole bus will be empty lor! Or maybe try it out in school canteen. Sure can get a seat for my whole group of friends. Yesterday was the start of elevtive. Means lessons end later than usual! But elective was fun. I love the lecturer. Ms Wilma.T. She is the one and only lecturer so far that can make me concentrate/laugh for a whole 2 hours 30 mins and still going on. The only thing i hate is. NEED TO BUY FORMAL WEAR! AND CAN'T USE BLACK TOP. MEANS I HAVE TO BUY ANOTHER ONE. WTF! Side track. Like and miss is totally different from love. Maybe cause of my past. I dare not open myself to love anymore. I find that love is just bullshit. Call me flirt or whatever you like. Cause i know i am not. That's enough. I do not find the need to explain to anybody. Or everybody. If i knew that jerk for 2 years plus and i still do not know him enough. Do you think someone that i met for only THREE days can be considered love? IDK too.

2009-05-03T23:15:00.002+08:00

No more fever. So glad. Thou still having slight cough. Went out today and saw somebody which i do not wish to see. 8 years and he is still the same. Childish! Following me all the way since we met face to face at the food court. Lucky my parents was somewhere nearby. Therefore called and they came to my rescue! He still recognised me. Proved that i have yet to change since primary school? Or proved that he have been stalking me for 8 years! I nearly couldn't recognise him. Took me 5-10 seconds and some hints before i could remember. Guess what is the 1st thing he said to me? "Erm. You still with that Ah Lian arh?" I was like "WTF". Someone actually still remembered that i was once a "lesbian" back in primary school days. Thinking back i still do miss her. Still remember vividly her sweet smile, her warmth, her care and concern. Still remembered calling her angel cause her name was Angela. Yes. She is my Ah Lian looking angel. Ha. And she called me Diamond. Lol. So Different from Crystal. That is what i always tell her. And she assured me that I'm as precious as a diamond to her. Wonder how she is now. I lose contact with her ever since i retained in Secondary 3. Such a pity. Dear girl. If you happened to pop by my blog. Just to let you know that i miss you alot. Thou i promised my mum to turn straight. I did try. But after what that jerk did to me. I think being a lesbian would be a much better choice. I don't know either. Maybe i have yet to meet my better other half. I though i met him. But he left without a word. Left me crying alone as i saw he leaving. The pain came back. Luckily i have only met him for three times. Otherwise i think it would hurt more than what that jerk did unto me. I miss you girl. But i miss ZM even more. Sigh.

Thou shalt not lie

2009-05-02T21:27:00.004+08:00

Rule #1:
If you read this you do it.

Rule #2:
You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you and asks.

Rule #3:
Answer True or False

Q: Kissed someone on your friends list? / True
Q: Been arrested? / False
Q: Do you like someone? / True
Q: Held a snake? / False
Q: Been suspended from school? / False
Q: Sang karaoke? / True
Q: Done something you told yourself you wouldn't do? / True
Q: Laughed until you started crying? / True
Q: Caught a snowflake on your tongue? / False
Q: Kissed in the rain? / True
Q: Sang in the shower? / True
Q: Sat on a roof top? / True
Q: Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? / True
Q: Broken a bone? / True
Q: Shaved your head? / False
Q: Played a prank on someone? / False
Q: Shot a gun? / False
Q: Donated Blood? / Truth

Just be 100% truthful.

LAST PERSON THAT.

1. You hung out with? / Fruity yougurt
2. You texted? / Cousin LiYun
3. You were in a car with? / Myself
4. Went to the movies with? / ZM
5. Person you went to shop with? / ZM
6. You talked on the phone? / Dental clinic to book appointment

7. Made you laugh? / Nurses at the hospital

8. You hugged? / ZM

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY...

1. Sun or moon? / Moon
2. Winter or Fall? / Winter
3. Left or Right? / Right
4. Sunny or rainy? / Rainy
5. Where do you live? / Singapore- Red light district
6. Club or pub? / Pub
7. Are there 1 or 2 people who you can always trust and rely on? / Yes
8. Do you want to get married? / Yes
9. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? / Twirl
10. What time is it? / 9.27PM
11. Are you afraid of commitment? / Depends
12. What is your greatest hope/wish? / To see him happy
13. Do you cook? / Yes
14. Current mood? / Sick

IN THE LAST 48 HOURS HAVE YOU...

1. Kissed someone? / No
2. Sang? / Yes
3. Listened to music? / Yes
4. Danced? / Yes
5. Cried? / Yes
6. Liked someone you can't? / Yes

22 FIRSTS

1.Who was your first prom date? / N/A
2. Who was your first roommate? / My Grandma
3. What alcoholic beverage did you drink when you got drunk the first time? / Wine.
5. What was your first car? / Toy car.
6. When did you go to your first funeral and viewing? / Primary 6~Grand dad.
8. Who was your first grade teacher? / Mrs Han Yap Lay Hua.
9. Where did you go on your first ride on an airplane? / Never been on a plane.
10. When you snuck out of your house for the first time? / Thursday night to go to hospital for jab.
11. Who was your first Best Friend? / N/A
12. Who is your best friend? / My Fruity milkshake.
14. Who is the first person you call when you have a bad day? / I pray to GOD.
15. Who's wedding were you in the first time you were a Bridesmaid or groomsmaid? / Flower girl? / Cousin SiRu.
16. What's the first thing you did when you got up this morning? /Wash up.
19. First tattoo or piercing? / Primary 1.
20. First celebrity crush? / N/A
22. First crush? Like a real person? /Aaron Chee LiYao~~Otherwise known as a jerk.

Repost this with "Thou shalt not lie".

2009-05-02T11:15:00.000+08:00

GUILTY. Is the only word to describe me now. Felt really guilty. I don't know why. That blog with that post will remain there till you return me my stuffs. That is the only thing i can assure you i will do. To delete it once you return me my stuffs. Its something not within my control, but it is within your control. You just have to return me my stuffs. And that post will be deleted. Simple as that. I regretted letting June join the company. Regret letting you make use of her. What kind of friend am i? To bring her down to your trap. I hope for the best that she will get her pay back. If not i don't think i will ever forgive myself. Friendship means a lot to me. And i treasure each and everyone of them.

Life is monotone cause i'm sick. I want to go out! Freak it fever. Cause of you my mum do not allow me to go anywhere. And i swear. Sleeping and eating for two whole days is a chore. And it gonna bring me extra fats! Oh My God!

2009-05-01T19:40:00.000+08:00

Sick. Down with high fever of 38.6, headache and a bad sore throat. Felt so weak. Have been staying at home sleeping the whole day since 9pm last night. I felt like a pig! Mum have been cooking tonics for me. Last night was abalone and essence chicken. This afternoon was fish maw soup and bird nest. I felt so fortunate to have such a caring mother. Thou it was only when i'm sick that she cook for me. I can feel the love in the food she cook! Hate the swine flu to the max! I want to go out! ARGH.

2009-04-30T22:27:00.000+08:00

Two weeks of school and still going strong. ICA presentation is coming soon. Two more weeks of preparatory work before doing presentation. Starting to feel the stress. Believe it or not. I do have stage fright. But not when dancing on stage. Cause dance is a form of relieving stress. I think? So far i only enjoyed labs and bio lecture. Except for today where i have to be MILK's model for her LAB makeup session. Sadness. The rest of the lessons seems so boring. But i believe that i can do it. Believe plus action is the key towards success ain't it? I have been going mad since i started poly life. Especially with my group of fruit milkshake. LOL! I'm begining to love school as much as i love this course. Be happy for me! I enjoy studying wierd subject with strange medical terms cause it seems so fun as i do not understand a thing. I'm wierd. Ha.

我们

2009-04-30T00:13:00.000+08:00

下雨了，你是否记得带伞？

你是否还记得我？

你是否记得那一天？

你是否记得我？

。。。

你要走时没告诉我。

我的心痛没告诉你。

到最后的最后，事情会变成怎么样？

。。。

一开始就不该假装自己，

我什么都不足够。

是否该放弃？

是否该继续？

。。。

走到这里，已有些事不可以。

等到这里，已有些想要放弃。

。。。

窗，正在摇动。

手，正在发抖。

快乐，不是你给的。

寂寞，要自己负责。

。。。

我们都没错，只是我们不知适合不适合。

我当时不懂得。

我要的我现在懂了。

谢谢你。